I'm An Experience [Kaoru Hitachiin x Non-Binary!Reader]

Chapter Four: Guess Who You Spy With Your Little Eye!

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You sneaked out of the prison you called your home and just hit the town. The people that your quote unquote 'kind' call commoners didn't mind your appearance and never asked for your gender Identity. They're chill. You prefer being here on weekends anyways. It's norm like you're family ever notices you're gone. Your parents are major buisnesspeople who monopolized the printing industry in your entire country. When they do pay attention to you it's an utter insult to your entire person. Stuff like your gender Identity being invalid and them constantly bugging you to start being a girl and get a boyfriend. You hate your intolerant ass parents. 

You just walk around the streets, hands shoved in the pockets of the baggy sweatpants. There were different shop booths set up And food truck so lined the streets. It's always like this. You kind of like the buisness. You can just fade into the crowd. Do you want to know who doesn't fade in the crowd? Gingers. You notice a very familiar ginger hiding in the crowd, eyes latched in front of him. Only a few feet in front of him was another ginger identical to him. You don't even need to see the amber eyes to prove it. These were the Hitachiin twins. And one of them was on a date. You out your hand on the stalking twin's shoulder. He jumps out of his skin and turns around. A flash of his kind eyes and you instantly know that this one is Kaoru. Melancholy seethed from both his facial expression and body language.

"Kaoru, it's not nice to stalk your brother. Is everything okay?"

Kaoru honestly seemed surprised to see you. He basically stared at you for a moment his brain running about as fast as internet explorer. Wait, nothing moves that slow. Maybe as slow as Mozilla Fire Fox with the Wi-Fi at two bars. Yeah. That's about the speed he's working at. Kaoru flashes you a cute and clumsy smile that you were not buying any bullshit from. It's obvious something was troubling him.

"Hey, it's you again (name). It's really nice seeing someone here who doesn't care for the act we put up."

Is that what he thinks of you? Someone who doesn't care for the act he constantly has to put up? Is the host club a chore for him or something? Now you feel really bad for him. Your sympathy and empathy levels are off the charts. No wonder he looks so sad! However it feels like it's deeper than that. Maybe there's more of a reason? You glance up to see Hikaru sharing an ice cream cone with the brown haired girl that seemed extremely familiar. You couldn't quite place who she was, however, much unlike seeing Kaoru in the crowd a handful of paragraphs ago. You kindly smiled at your first friend to ever respect your pronouns and your gender Identity.

"Anything for someone as amazingly kind as you, but Seriosuly What is wrong? Do I have to beat somebody up! Anybody hurt you or anything?"

You turn him around, checking for bruises and scratches. Is he physically hurt or mentally hurt? Hopefully just mentally hurt. Wait, no. It's easier to deal with physical pain. You wouldn't want anyone as sweet as Kaoru to feel anything other than happiness and joy. Kaoru just nervously laughed and tried to get you to stop spinning him around like a madperson. You let him go and looked in his eyes. Why was he hurting? You didn't want him to hurt. He's the first person you've genuinely cared about in a long, long while.

"No no, nobody hurt me. I'm perfectly fine. I'm actually wondering what are you doing here? I didn't expect you to be in a commoner marketplace."

He tried his dsrndest to change the subject. When he tries his best snd he doesn't succeed, amirite? You ain't taking any bullshit. You let him go and cross your arms, he could probably tell you weren't taking any shit. He sighed and went ahead and started venting to you a little bit. Anything you can know to make him feel better.

"It's just... Since Hikaru started dating Haruhi I've been a lot more depressed and guilty. I mean, here I am pretending to be in love with my twin brother when he has a girlfriend already. Not to mention the fact that he has someone to love him and I don't... I just really feel like the lesser half."

Two things to say about that. First things first, Haruhi Fujioka? You swore you've heard that name before. Her name was also on the host sheet. A crossdresser? You support her. With the silly half out of the way now we can talk about the serious stuff. Kaoru feels like a lesser half, is lonely, and depressed!? Not on your gender Nuetral watch! You pursed your lips and picked Kaoru up from under his arms. All that sneaking out and lifting things to hide your secret exit made you pretty damn strong. Kaoru just blinks like a cuteness little anime girl when they get picked up and stares at you. He looks really sad in the inside. No wonder the guilt shown in his eyes during the last chapter which in story-time is about a day ago. You went ahead and gave him a lecture you hoped would bring his spirits up.

"Listen to me And listen to me well Kaoru. There is no such thing as a weaker half. Even identical twins have different personalities, tastes, and things that make them different. You don't have to be identical to Hikaru. You don't have to follow in his shadow. You don't have to feel insignificant to anyone because you are your own individual with your assets and your flaws. And if you're lonely, god damnit just find me! It's not like I have any friends! I would go out to hang or just go on a date with you whenever the hell you want! Why? Because you're an amazing kind person who doesn't deserve to feel depressed! You don't have to regret anything! You. Are. Incredible. Period!"

Kaoru stared at you for a really long time as you held him in your arms like a puppy. He was cute like a puppy too. You saw the tears for me in his eyes, yet he strained to keep them in. He tried his best to flash a smile at you. Smile through the pain. Fake it until you make it. Your heart shattered for him.

"Yeah, I am my own person aren't I? Can I take you up on that offer to hang out?"

FUCK YEAH!!! YOU WILL HANG OUT WITH HIM WHENEVER AND WHEREVER!!! You grinned at him with confidence.

"Hell yeah! That's why I offered it!"

Dating start!

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