Sequel to On the Road- Awsten Knight.
One year later, their worlds have been torn apart, but through late night phone calls and inside jokes can they rekindle what they had?
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"Whisper to me all the things I'm scared to hear." I said softly.
"You mean the world to me." He whispered, his voice sending electricity through my body. "I will never stop loving you."
"I can't be with him anymore, but I can't be with you either." I groaned, frustrated.
"Why?" His voice was still a whisper.
"Because I love you too much that I don't want to poison you with my toxic mind." My eyes stung as I held back tears in the cold winter air.
"What if I'm the antidote?" I never thought about it like that.
"Where do you see this going?"
"I want to love you for as long as I can. You're my best friend, I want to see you and be around you."
"Awsten-" I sighed. "I can't let you love me when I don't love myself."
"I know." His voice was soft and barely there. A million emotions were flooding through me and it was getting a bit much. I closed my eyes and let the winter wind kiss my skin.
"I got offered a temporary manager role at work today, one of the managers is on maternity leave so they asked if I'd fill in." I changed the subject.
Awsten cleared his throat before saying: "That's amazing! Did you take it?"
"I told them I'd get back to them about it tomorrow morning. It would mean my pay would go up an extra £3 an hour, but I'd also have to work at least 10 more hours a week and I don't know if I can with the zine." I admitted my fears about it.
"Isla, you're an incredible woman, who can do anything she puts her mind to. You really can do it, if that's what you want. Just whatever you do, promise me that you will look after yourself." I don't know how he could still hold so much admiration for me after everything I've put him through. I dragged him through hell...
9 months earlier....
"God dammit Isla! When will you fucking learn?" Awsten finally lost his temper with me after I had convinced myself that he didn't want to be with me for the hundredth time this week.
"Just fuck off alright! I don't know why I do this! Don't make me feel even shittier." I cried and tugged at my hair. Awsten pulled my hands away from my scalp and held them in his.
"Buttercup, it just frustrates me when you don't believe that I love you." He said in his normal voice.
"Don't you have a meeting you need to get to?" I sighed, still sniffling my tears.
"Yeah." He exhaled heavily. "Come here." Awsten held out his arms and I slumped into them. His warmth wrapped around me as he rested his chin on top of my head, that laid flush against his chest.
"I'm madly in love with you, okay. That's not going to change any time soon." He pulled away slightly so he could look at my face as he said it. I looked up at him and nodded in response.
