𝐖𝐎𝐑𝐋𝐃𝐒 𝐀𝐏𝐀𝐑𝐓

1.5

You're all gonna hate meee

FINNS POV

The stars in the dark nights sky twinkled, with orbs of bright colours and pure bliss. All of the stars looked so happy in the sky, like they had all found their place. My dark eyes searched for a constellation, so I could point it out to Amelia.

We both laid on the small, grassy hill. She wanted to stargaze, so I took her to do it. Her ocean blue eyes had reflections of the moonlight inside of them, like the moon reflected on the sea in the late summer nights when the skies weren't foggy.

It was weird how magical the sky was, I never really thought of it to be so beautiful before I laid down and observed it fully. It was like the stars were an escape from reality, and suddenly I wasn't the guy who had paparazzi following him wherever he went, or a guy who's best friend faked his death.

It felt like I was whole again, like a few years ago when I had no real problems in the world and I would get angry over not being able to get a note right. It brought me back to the times where things were so much more simpler. The times I wished that I could go back to.

I wished that I could have spent my years with the right people, or erased some of the bad memories or at least have prevented them. Like if I had just accepted the fact that I had lost my father and not have got involved with Nicholas, then I wouldn't have bad memories of myself almost dying because of drug overdoses.

I wished that I hadn't of wasted all of my time being bad in school, or back-chatted the teachers or even of held grudges to some of the people who were now my best friends; like Iris. But that was my past, and there was nothing I could physically do to change it.

My past defines who I am as a person now, though. In a way, I'm thankful that I did everything that I did, or that everything happened. With the things I had been through, I was stronger. I had learnt that there were bigger problems in the world.

I met some of the best people from the worst situations. I had lost some of the best ever people who turned out to have such a negative impact on my life. I had gotten rid of all the toxicity and now I was finally happy.

I could say that now—the smiles I had were real, and no more laughs were fake. I had an amazing family. I had a beautiful girlfriend, an amazing, funny, gorgeous daughter. I had a mini, hilarious version of myself which I made.

I had an amazing group of friends, like Lilia who was always there for me no matter of the situation, and Sadie who taught me that it was okay to cry and I didn't have to be Mr Tough Guy all of the time. I had Gaten, who made me laugh for hours on end until we would both had tears seeping through the corners of our eyes.

I had Caleb who had been such a good friend to me since the day I met him, and enrolled me into the soccer team where I made some amazing memories. I had Maddie, even though she hit me across the head with a baseball bat when she turned psycho. But it was worth it, because we laugh about it now.

I had iris, who was all together an amazing person that I was so thankful to have in my life. I had Lizzy, who was Gaten's literal ray of sunshine and an amazing, talented person.

I had my life, and I was thankful for it.

"Daddy, thanks for taking me star gazing." Amelia said, hugging me tightly.