Break up

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by Birdiessongs

by Birdiessongs

"Just leave!" Colby yelled.
"I never did anything to you! This is your anger and fear getting the best of you!" I cried.
"Well I don't want to ever have to fear ever again! I wouldn't have to worry if i didn't date you!"
"You don't wanna date me anymore?" I asked shocked.
"JUST LEAVE!" He shouted.
I nodded and ran out of his room. I ran down the stairs violently.
"Woah where are you going?" Corey asked. He knew something was wrong.
"I don't ever want to talk to Colby ever again! He's a jerk who doesn't even love me anymore!!"
"Woah. Calm down. Why doesn't Colby love you?"
"B-because he doesn't care about me anymore. He thinks I'm too much of a worry for him!" I stopped yelling and cried.
Corey hugged me.
"You'll be okay. Do you want me to take you home?"
"Yeah."
"Do you wanna get your stuff?"
I just shook my head and he walked me out the door.
I got home and I flopped on my bed. I laid there for a minute and then stood up with rage. I ripped pictures of Colby off my wall, drawings and other objects as well. They were all thrown into a box. I laid back on my bed and soon fell asleep to the sound of my own stifled cry.
I woke up the next morning. Birds chirped. My face felt stiff, it packed together from salt from my tears.
I heard the doorbell ring. I threw my hair up as I walked downstairs. A strum of fear that it would be Colby hit me, but disappeared in seconds when I saw Corey.
"Hey." I half smiled.
"Hey how ya doin?" He asked looking down at me.
"I'm okay."
"I came here to give you this."
He handed me a box of my stuff and I smiled at it.
"Thanks Corey." I said circling the side of the box with my thumb.
"No problem." He said swiping his hand.
We stood there for a minute.
"Well. I gotta go. Devyn is waiting for me. All of us are going for lunch."
"Okay. Tell the girls I said hi."
"Okay."
We both smiled and waved and he went off on his way.
I sighed and put my stuff where it once was. I flopped on my bed.
"Wait. Where's my bracelet?" I said aloud to myself.
I searched my room.
"Crap! It's still there!" I sighed remembering that I put it on Colby's desk.
I texted Corey and he said they were all out but he was able to let me in to grab it.
Timeskip
I walked into their house and went to his room. As soon as I did I was flooded with memories. Late night pizza, deep talks in the dark, waking up to his hair being insane. I started to tear up and get sad. I found the bracelet on his desk still exactly as it was. I grabbed it and ran downstairs. I couldn't help but see the piano. I was a good player, been practicing since I was around six. I sat down and started playing a song.

I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

I closed my eyes and really felt the lyrics.

I couldn't help but really sing my pain.

You used to captivate me by your resonating light
Now, I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me

I wanted him to show up and see my pain. The person he hurt.

These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me, I've been alone all along
When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
You still have all of me, me, me

When the song ended I started crying. I placed my head on my arms on the piano and cried. I just don't understand why he doesn't want me anymore. I don't understand why him not wanting me, hurts me so much.
"Y/n?" I heard a soft voice say.
I shot up and saw Colby.
"It's fine. I'm just leaving." I stiffened. I walked past him.
"Wait! Y/n." He said.
Half of me wanted to stop, half of me wanted to stay and see what he had to say. So I stayed.
"I'm so sorry for last night." He started.
"I don't want to hear it. Apparently I'm not good enough for you."
"But you are good enough for me!"
"Obviously not! If I was, we'd still be together." I spat.
His head hung.
"Please don't leave me. I need you."
That stung me just a little. Hit me right in the heart. I turned to him and said "then why did you hate me last night?"
"Because I was angry, I was frustrated and scared you were gonna leave me so my Brain decided to hurt you before you could hurt me."
He choked and stifled a cry.
"I don't know Colby. You hurt me pretty bad. I don't think I can forgive you. I don't play around with feelings."
"Please. I'll make it up!"
"Let me ask you something Colby. If I took this picture frame and threw it on the ground would it break?"
"Yeah."
I threw it on the ground and it split and shattered.
"Now let me ask you something else. If you picked that up and tried to put it together again would it be completely put back together again even after working at it?"
"N-no."
"Exactly. So the frame was my feelings, the throw was your words, the shatter was my heart, the you fixing it was every single 'I'm sorry' or dozen roses. No matter how much you try to fix it, I'll still have that memory, even if we get married, have kids, grow old and die together, I will always remember that."
"So what are you saying?"
"I don't know. You tell me. Is it worth it to stay?"
"Yes. It's worth it. I love you so much. Please."
"Well you didn't love me last night. So am I just supposed to ignore the times you don't love me or what?"
"N-no. Yes. Wait. I just...." He seemed to give up trying.
"I wish you knew better." I shook my head. I grabbed my stuff and walked out.
I'm not dealing with that emotional ride.
Not doing it