Pumped-Up Kicks (A Logan Lerman Story)

Chapter 45

Real Girls Eat Cake-The Janoskians

Just One Yesterday- Fall Out Boy feat. Foxes!

Animal- Neon Trees

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Logan's P.O.V.

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I saw her. And she was looking at me. And this wasn't a dream. Telly was actually here. She probably didn't remember what I promised her a few years ago. And I was such a fuck up that she wouldn't want to be married to me. " Hi." I spoke first.

"Did you follow me?" She unleashed her self defense mode. The moonlight bounced off of her shiny hair and made her look like she was glowing. I couldn't stop staring at her "Well. Did you?"

"Oh um no. I just came here. I didn't know you'd be here."

"Well. I've been here long enough. I guess its your turn. I'll see you at school." She started walking away from me.

"Telly wait. Come here I have to apologize." I grabbed her wrist and pulled her close.

"No Logan please  not right now. I'm tired and I just want to sleep. Can we talk about this later."

"Your still a shit liar."

"I know."

"I wanted to say sorry. Because you were right. I was playing with you and I know it sounds so fucked up. I was playing with you but it wasn't for self gratification. It was because I loved you. And I still do. I fell in love with you the day we first met." My confessions sounded like bullshit but it was the truth.

"You're a damn good actor."

"No I wasn't acting. My image of love is shattered. My image of everything is shattered to the point where I'm pretty much blind. I can't see the same things I used to. Everything has a deeper meaning and its confusing. I know I act like a badass and treat you like shit and you deserve someone better like Jared. But even in my fucked up ways, I love you more than you can ever imagine. I can't see the same things that I used to. And I don't know what you do. Remie was a distraction. But you complete me."

"Do you see me?" She touched the side of my face.

"You're all I ever see."

"Then nothing else matters. Apology excepted. But I'm still a little upset." She backed away from me pronptly.

"I know I know. But you can't resist all of this."

"You're an idiot."

"Thanks."

"What you wanna do now?"

"Let's go skinny dipping." I suggested just like the last time we were here.

" You remember that?"

"I couldn't ever forget." I pulled my shirt over my head.

"I'm not getting in this time."

"But it was always you're dream to repeat history."

"Well yeah but-"

"This is your only chance."

"You don't know that. We could keep fighting."

"Yeah but thats what people like us do." She pointed out.

"True but. Don't you want something cool to tell our kids in the future. I wanna be able to tell them that I went skinny dipping with my best friend and later married her." I repeated my words.