suicidal thoughts

turn the car around

Scarlett's pov

"hey hey scar it's ok" he whispers wrapping his arms around me. I just cry. I let it all out. he pulls me in to a janitors closet. Cliché isn't it.

he rewraps his arms around me and rubs circles on my back trying to calm me down.

"life is fuck up" I cry

"Scarlett what happened" he spoke softly

"I don't know! I was perfectly fine when I was with you guys and bam when the cab dropped me off it's like everything fell apart I started to freak out I felt like the walls were caving in around me like I was drowning in my own thoughts and there was no way I was gonna save myself I-I couldn't breath and I was curled up into a ball trying to find the air in my lungs. I could do anything to stop the pain that was filling my body. it was like my mind wanted me to feel this way. " I stopped speaking to take a shaky breath

"Scarlett you should have called.." michaels voice cracked at the end

"I wanted to I-I wanted to so bad but I couldn't make you wake up in the middle of the night to help me. I couldn't put you through anymore shit"

"I want to help you Scarlett no matter what"

"t-the voices"

"what?"

"the voices said you guys are just pitying me you guys don't even care for me at all" the tears start to flow down my cheeks again

"no no that's not true " tears now fall onto michaels cheeks "you are my friend because you are funny and adorable. I love the way you look at us when we do something stupid or when you smile at a show or anything you do just makes me smile"

I wrap my arms around him and squeeze him close "thank you so much "

"for what?"

"for being there"

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"hey where were you last period?"

Luke asked at lunch

"I skipped" I shrugged my shoulders.

"hmm that's weird you like never skip anymore..."

"guess I wanted to today"

Luke's pov

after school i invited the boys and Scarlett over but she said she was tired so we drop her off at home

"Scarlett was acting different today.." I spoke

"yeah in the class we have together she was so.. silent" Calum added

"maybe she was just bored" Ashton commented

Michael awkwardly shifted in his seat

"Mikey?" I ask

"hm"

"are you hiding something?"

"I-i"

"he is!" Calum yelled

"Jesus cal not so loud! I'm trying to drive" Ashton rolled his eyes

"Michael please what's going on." I beg

"ok so last night after-"

*ring ring*

"hold on." Michael answers the phone "hello?..." "ash turn the car around" Michaels face turns pale

what's going on?

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OMG I ALMOST HAVE 500 reads!! thank you so much and I'll try and update more sorry I haven't school started back up and yeah