I cry as I pick the glass out of my hands and knees. I stare at the bloody sink from my hands and knees and wonder if it is really all worth it anymore. "is it worth living" I say aloud. I look at the pills on the counter. My mind starts swirling wi...
Oops! This image does not follow our content guidelines. To continue publishing, please remove it or upload a different image.
Time Skip Thursday
My Father hasn't really shown his face much to me. He comes out to eat the food I serve him and then he leaves to go to the bars. I only occasionally hear him come through the door at 3 AM with somebody new. I miss mom. If only nothing would have happened to her. I hear him whispering something outside my door before my door gets kicked open and he and the unknown stranger laugh. "She obsesses over these chinese men" I hear him slur as he walks in. I sit up in my bed and try to tell him to leave me alone. he simply laughed and starts tearing my posters off the wall, ripping the photo books, and stomping on the CD's. I jumped out of bed and grabbed onto his arm. "Please stop" I cry. He grabs me by the neck and pushes me against the wall. I smell the stench of alcohol on his breath as he leans in and yells in my face. "You WILL RESPECT ME. MY HOUSE MY RULES!! I Want It ALL Burned". After this he lets me go as he watches me take my things outside to be burned. The tears stream down my face as I watch my small little collection being engulfed in flames. I hear him laughing behind me as I cried. I couldn't take it. I ran. I ran as fast as I could away from him, away from this nightmare. It took awhile but I finally made it to Emma's house. I didn't want to bother her at such a late hour so I sat on her porch swing letting the cool air go through me. That's all I remember before darkness took over.
I woke up with Emma looking at me with sad eyes. "You wanna talk about it" she asked. I just shook my head no. Her mom came out and invited me in. She made pancakes for us which kind of made me happy. I decided not to go home. I figured if I did I might end up hurt. Though I wouldn't tell anyone what happened Emma knew something was not right. Her mom called Dawn and asked if she would like to come over for a girls day. Within minutes she was at Emma's house. During that time we gossiped about school, watched some movies together, and listened to music. "Gosh I don't know what I would do without you guys" I said truly happy at the moment. It felt weird to have such a big smile on my face. It wasn't even a fake smile, it was real. We watched movies like 200 pound beauty, and shows like Boys Over Flowers, and Hwarang: the Poet Warrior Youth. It was truly the greatest. I almost forgot about last night and what brought me here in the first place until
*RING*
I hear Emma's mother's phone go off. She answered the phone and I knew exactly who it was. She smiled and reassured the person on the other side of the line that I was safe and with her. I put my head down knowing what was coming next. Her mom came back to me smiling and told me my father called her and was concerned about you and where you were, that he wanted me to come home and have the rest of the day with him. "You know like Dad and Daughter day." she said with a smile. I tried to smile back but my face faltered and fell a little. "Well I guess I better get home." I said rather flat. I thanked everyone for there time and left to go home. I walked home slowly. The whole way home I kept my head down. I finally made it to my way home and it took all the strength I had to walk up my stairs into my own house.
