Book 2 ~ All Of Me. Loves All Of You. And You? (Aaron Carpenter/Cam Dallas)

Chapter 9

Dedication: clouderr9111 (Instagram user) because she random started up a conversation with me and is a really cool and funny girl. She randomly found me on here and seemed like a very big fan of these two books. And sorry I didn't know your user on here. But hope you enjoy the chapter!!

Warning: Nothing important happens during time skips!!

*Shawn's POV*

I texted the others telling them I can't make it over before heading to my house with Taylor. Luckily when we arrived my mom wasn't home yet so didn't have to deal with my mom turning extremely protective the moment seeing Taylor. We went upstairs into my room and just sat on my bed in an awkward silence.

"Shawn," he said turning towards me. "I'm sorry. I know that just saying it won't help. But I realize how much of a douche I was and I'm sorry. It sounds stupid but I'm happy you broke up with me. It gave me a reality check and made me think what I want to be, what I want to become and who I want in my life."

"Taylor. You broke me."

"Shawn I kno-...ow! That hurt," he hissed in pain.

"Hold on," I got up and went into the main bathroom grabbing the first aid kit. Then went back and sat on my bed opening it. "It may hurt. But as I'm healing you, you can tell me how you ended up like this."

"I broke it off with Stacy......I saw her cheating and surprisingly didn't hurt me as much as it should've."

As I started to clean a few cuts, I mumbled, "wish it had so you can feel my pain."

"I heard that. But the reason it didn't hurt was because it wasn't you doing it. Halfway through yelling at her I called her you and everything suddenly clicked. Shawn. I need you."

"Yeah well I needed you Taylor and where were you? Oh that's right off with your now new ex. Did you even think bout how it was us who broke apart all the friendships? It started off with us because we were the strongest couple there. I relied on you too much and that caused me to get hurt. I've needed you so many times but the ones there for me was Cam and Kay. Not even our other friends we've grown up with," I said trying to remain calm.

"Shawn I made a mistake! I'm not like you!"

"What do you mean 'not like me'?"

"I'm not strong like you. I wasn't ready to come out. I know we both said we wouldn't have to come out to the world but I'm not strong like you Shawn. I can't handle all the hate and comments. I love you and I let fear overpower what we had. And I'm sorry Shawn. I know it won't make anything right but I'm just.....I'm sorry," he looked up at me and I realized he was crying. "I'm sorry for being a screw up. I'm sorry for being a douche. I'm sorry for hurting you. For hurting Kay. For breaking up our circle of friends. I'm sorry for not bring perfect. I'm sorry I couldn't be the guy you need.......I might as well be dead."

"Taylor Michael Caniff! Don't you ever say that again! I may still be hurting and may not trust you but you have my heart. You always will have my heart. I'm inlove with you and whether we're together or not I want you happy. And saying you should be dead for sure doesn't make you happy." I finished him 'healing' him before putting the kit aside.

"All I'm asking is for you to take me back. Please?"

I took a deep breath before saying, "I can't. At least not right now. I love you Taylor. I truly do but I can't just trust you automatically again. You really broke me really badly. We can start off as how we were before we were dating. If you make progress we'll see about moving up."

"I understand. Honestly I wouldn't have even spoken to me if I were you."

"Well I give second chances but Kay......goodluck with her."