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Camila

"Clarke, I bet my one hundred pesos, mam Alison is interested in women." Sabi ko pagka-alis namin ng building, nagpaiwan si Mam Em dun and kasama ko si Lexa pero she's just her usual self.

Napa-roll eyes si Clarke nung  narinig nya yung sinabi ko. "I think I will be a hundred pesos richer." Psh.

Ikaw nga bakla nakalimutan mo lang eh, sows Clarke.

"Naaaah, I believe what you meant to say was, Mila you'd be a hundred pesos richer soon." I mimic her voice towards the end and she rolled her eyes.

"Alison's gay, okay? Now stop fighting." woah—

"How'd you know?" Tanong ni Clarke well i'm too shocked to process and a hundred pesos richer as of now.

"Alison's part of the fam, okay? Now shut up." Okay, magpapaanak na talaga ako kay Lauren cuz ang ganda ng genes nila.

"How can I be sure na you're not lying?" Tanong ni Clarke na nakacross arms pa.

Lexa rolled her eyes. "Cuz you know me better than this Clarkey-- I gotta go."

whooopped slip 1 Lex.

Pero wait, this same Lexa used to call Clarke, Clarkey? Welp.

"He– hey! Bumalik ka dito Lexa!!" Ayun tumakbo nadin si Clarke para sundan si Lexa. Psh, i-untog ko nalang kaya si Clarke para maalala nya yun.

Diba dapat magttrigger na moment? Syempre nakakatriggerd pag hinampas ko yung ulo nya sa pader diba? oh sige tawa naman kayo, support ples.

Pero ayun dahil iniwan na nga ko ng mga kumag, at dahil onting minuto nalang din ay magbe-bell na edi pupunta nalang ako sa building namin.

O'nga pala, hindi ko classmate si Lauren. Well pag tuesday and friday lang cuz yun yung sched nya sa room namin pero pag monday and wed si leksa yung kaklase ko. Wala share ko lang, malay nyo curios kayo diba?

At dahil nga miyerkules ngayon, stuck ako kay Lexa although mas oks na si Lexa kesa dati cuz can you belib it? she knows how to speak.

Akala ko sadyang pipi lang talaga sya dati pero nauuuh, nagsasalita sya at nakaka mesmerize yung boses nya, pero kay Lauren lang ako. Lauren lang shuapat na walang titibag bebe bente siyete.

BELLLLLLLLLL

psh. welp, gotta go. brb.

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Clarke

"Lexa can you please stop walking?!!" Its been a minute of me shouting her name and her not stop walking.

I just wanted to know if she knew me before, if I did something bad or good to her cuz seriously she's been, i don't know. she's been a lot more difficult to handle after that accidental slip that she did.

Alam kong magkakilala kame before, but still I wanted to know if she's important to me cuz I feel that she is.

I wanna treasure her, and I don't know why am I feeling this cuz as far as I know I am straight as fuck.

Siguro naguguluhan lang ako or its just a simple girl crush. I haven't felt it before as far as I know so maybe girl crush ko sya before that's why I am feeling this.

Pero it just don't make sense.
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"Milaaaaaaaa. Bakit ganun?" I half drunkenly said.

It's kind of unfair cuz I don't remember things from my past and when it came back it just like a trailer from it. It's just like I don't know the whole story of my life.

"Alam mo kasi Clarke, everything happens for a reason, maybe it just don't make sense right now but sooner or later you will remember things and I hope that you will make the right choice." I rolled my eyes, right choice from what my ass. Ano bang pinagsasabi neto? Pero she's kinda right, everything just don't make sense right now.

"Mila, I know. Pero kasi as you've said, everything don't make sense so how can I make the right choice if I don't know what the fucks happening?" may sense pa naman uyunh sinasabi ko right?

Pero life's so unfair, there's no question about that, pero bat nung pinagsakluban ng langit ang lupa ngnproblema sa sobrang pagka eksayt ko sinolo ko lahat?

Parang ang unfair namen saken nun.

Why can I just remember thing so I will stop digging for an answer cuz to be honest its getting tiring.

I think that I know myself but I don't and it sucks.

Ako kumokontrol ng isip ko pero di ko alam nakaraan ko? What kind of fuckery is that?

"Nevermind, let's just binge watch b99." Finally, the only thing that's keeping me sane right now.

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HI its 2:07 in the morning and i am drunk asf. by the way, who's coming at the harmo's fan gathering this july? hmu so i'll know someone hehe by the way enjoy readjng 💖