Hiling

10

y'all im sorry i binge watch amar a muerte and y'all probably know i have to add my babies here. Juliantina is part of the ship, y'all would see them next chap!!

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Sobrang nakakalito na.

One minute she's all over me then afterwards she acts like I have some disease.

I just don't know how to crack Lexa. Ilang araw na and still she's giving me mix signals that's making me have mixed emotions.

I do think that it's just all in my head pero the way that she was all over me? That's something cuz Lexa's cold as fuck.

Ewan ko ba bat ako nagkaka-ganto. She is just a girl and I can't be having some sort of feelings on her cuz that is just impossible.

I mean I could but I can't. May Finn na ko, and I will not cheat on him. I know how bad it felt to be cheated on and I can't let others experience what I did.

Pero....

Lexa she's some sort of a mystery. And kahit na ayaw ko, I just keep craving her. It may be just some silly crush pero kasi...

Why is life so complicated? Ano to? part two ng mahal ko o mahal ako?

Wait mahal ba ko ni Finn? Well tbh di ko alam.

Buhay nga naman oh, parang life talaga.

I don't know that much about Lexa pero here am I, completely crazy just thinking about her.

Fuck, why am I like this? Pero bakit ganun kasi sya? I felt like I knew somewhere, I just don't remember where. Minsan napapaisip ako kung talaga bang kilala ko si Lexa from before cuz she seriously knew me. Kilala nya ko, pero bakit hindi ko sya kilala? Isn't that unfair? Oo, life isn't fair pero why can't I remember her? Isang malaking gap yung nasa utak ko and I know that only her could fill it...

I think I am fucking crazy for thinking this much but I just can't help it.

Who the fuck are you, Lexa Woods?

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Camila

Date night.

First date night namin ni Lauren after that 'you're mine and i am yours' moment namin ni Jauregui.

Ewan ko bat kabado ako eh magdedate lang naman kami ni Lauren. Wala namang bago dun, ilang beses na kaming nagdate. First meeting pa nga lang namin nagdate na kame eh, may game talaga bebe ko.

Pero bakit talaga ganun? Ba't ako kinakabahan? Wala na namang bago eh, parang kakain lang naman kame sa labas tas maglalandian ng very slight eh. So bat kabado bente ka, Camila ha? Dating gawi lang naman ah.

"Kaki, nasa baba na si Lolo." Narinig kong sabi ng kapatid ko habang kumakatok sa pinto ko.

Camila, inhale, exhale.

Okay, here comes nothing.

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Dumaan ako sa kwarto ni mama bago ako umalis. Syempre kumatok din ako, bago ko binuksan yung pinto. "Ma, andito na po si Lauren, aalis lang po ako sandali." Pagpapaalam ko, tumango naman si mama at ngumiti bago nagsabi ng "Mag-iingat Karla, send my regards to Lauren." Syempre ako naman yung ngumiti at tumango bago ko sinara ulit yung pinto.

Okay, here comes everything...

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Dahil late ko na nalaman na ako pala magpplano ng date namin ng bebe ko, syempre papa-impress ako ng onti.

Joke lang. Hindi ko na kailangan mag ma-impress kasi onting push nalang din mahal na ko nun, and alam ko yun.

I'm so full of myself, shems.

Eto na, no jokes aside, so dahil ako nga yung magpplano, dinala ko sya sa muñoz market.

Yap, sa muñoz. Kasi bukod sa sobrang lapit na namen dito, maraming streetfoods dito. I doubt na nakakain na si Lauren dito, cuz ewan ko. Feeling ko lang hindi pa.

Nasa other side kame, wala lang. Just a change of scenery, kasi syempre palagi kaming kumakain sa mga fastfood or cafes. And since I like streetfoods and syempre para tipid cuz im broke asf, dito ko nalang sya dadalhin.

"Lo, dito na tayo." Sabi ko nung nakita ko yung stall nila kuya, tinaasan lang ako ng kilay ni Lauren.

I shrugged. "Dito na tayo kakain bebe. Eat all you can to." Natatawang sabi ko sakanya, tinarayan nya lang ako ulit tas humarap kay kuya. "Manong, what's this orange thingy?" Napakamot lang ng ulo si kuya. "Kwek-kwek yan Lo, sang bundok kaba nakatira ha?" Pang-aasar ko sakanya.

"Heh, i'm sorry we don't have something like this in us kase, okay?" Naiinis nyang sabi saken, well madali naman talagang inisin bebe ko. Bawi nalang ako mamaya.

Kumuha ako ng stick nung bopis (not sure kung bopis pero ayun yung kasama sa kinakain namin, litid, bopis, kwekwek and kalamares. kunyare bopis nalang oks?) tas binabad ko sa suka. Kakabukas papang ata nila kuya, wala pang tao eh. kami palang gabi kasi di na kame katuhog ni Clarke dito eh. Tinignan ko si Lauren, napatawa ako bigla, napaka-cute naman talaga ng bebe ko oh.

"Oh anong tinatawa mo dyan?" Sabi ni Lauren habang puno pa yung labi nya ng kwek kwek. Parang kanina lang nako nako.

"Wala po bebe."