Paint The Pain Away [DISCONTINUED]

Chapter 20: Soft Spot

I had just got back home after a long day of dealing with the Star Sanses. Ink gets more suspicious each day, and I feel like soon he will just spy on me. Creepy.
I had just gotten into the shower, to hopefully wash away all the positivity they push onto me. This gave me time to think. And I did, a lot.

Do they know?
What if they find out?
Will they hate me?
Why am I thinking this? I don't care!
I just want to keep my side of the deal!
If they figure it out out plans to wipe them out are ruined!
Yeah, I only care about the deal.
Why did I even accept the deal?
I wonder what would of happened if I declined?
My depression and anxiety has almost disappeared....
Could it be because of the Star Sanses?
No, of course not!
I just finally have a purpose!
Yeah, that's why it has gone away!
But they are kind of...
No!
I will not think this way!!
My shower is finished now, I'll just stop thinking about this.

With this final thought in mind I turned off the water to the shower, signaling it was done. I for out amd wrapped myself in my towel, drying myself, then roughly putting clothes on. Lastly, I brushed my teeth and hair, making sure to hopefully cleanse myself of the previous thoughts that made my mouth taste sour. 'I couldn't ever befriend them in actuality....' I thought to myself dully.
Shaking my head and finishing my nightly tasks, I jumped into bed face first, tired once again- this happens every day, you'd think I'd get some endurance. But no- from the lovely and long social interaction that those Sanses bring. Wait- what did I say!? Lovely?!
Nightmare would freak of he heard my thoughts right now, but I guess I can't deny it. I have a little soft spot for those Sanses, Blueberry is just always so positive and optimistic, Dream is welcoming and refreshing from the world, and Ink is... Ink doesn't like me one bit it seems.. I wish he did. But he seems to be positive, but he can only feel from those vials of his, that could be useful information if it comes down to a fight between us too.

'I hope it doesn't come to that....'

With that final thought in mind, I drifted away to a dreamless sleep, with a smile on my face.

(A/N)
I am so sorry, but I wanted to do a happier chapter, just to give not only some insight to Y/N's mind, but to also show how her relationship with the Star Sanses is progressing! I know it is a bit shorter, but I didn't know what to do!! I have no clue what to write ever T.T but anyways, bye!