I Don't Belong

SHAWN MENDES!~TWELVE

Aishleen turned around and almost fell, but he was still holding her so she didn't.

She hugs him back and didn't let go, when they actually let go he helped her sit on the dining room chair. He sat beside her and started talking, Aishleen of course was mumbling, but I bet he's use to that.

Me and Niall went over to the living room and sat on the couch.  We started talking and he asked about how I am and it was just simple talk. Shawn and Aishleen joined us and we all had a conversation.

About 40 minutes after we got home Daylinn came down, she said, "good morning everyone, why is everyone awake at 4 am?" She says.

We all laugh and I reply, "it's pm, baby girl." She looks at her phone and laughs.

"Haha, that's my fault for falling asleep so late, I need a job." She laughs again.

We all laugh and then she joins the conversation.

"So Aishleen, what is you ethnicity?" Shawn asks in his American accent.

"I'm Dominican," she reply while lifting up her glasses.

"Really, you're very beautiful." He says which makes her blush.

I smile while they talk and I hop up and hop to my wheelchair. I wheel myself to the kitchen and open up the fridge. I grab a monster and I grabbed my leftovers from the day I had the accident. I warmed it up and went into the dining room and placed my food on the table and started eating. Everyone comes over and fills the table chair, Niall next to me on the right, Shawn next to him, Aishleen next to Shawn and Daylinn next to me and Aishleen.

Since I'm in a wheelchair there's enough room. Daylinn makes a little joke saying, "since everyone has there's celebrity crush... Wheres mine?"

I laugh and say, "oh let me just dial him right up" I say laughing even more.

"Oh yes please!" Daylinn says and I laugh even more and everyone else follows.

"Who is you celebrity crush?" Shawn says.

"6lack! I love him!" She says while dozing off.

We end our funny, but interesting conversation around 8. Shawn and Niall went over to Niall's house and decided to work on some music before they fall asleep and us girls started talking about random stuff.

We blabbed on until 11, while eating dinner at 9- 9:30. I decided that I should go up to bed. I left my wheelchair next to the bathroom door which is right next to the stairs and hopped to the granny moving chair for stairs.

When I go upstairs I went on my laptop and played some one direction music. While listening to one direction I was on my phone reading the rest of my book that I haven't finished.

I then fell asleep.

[Next morning]
I wake up and it's 10 am, I dicided to take a shower, but tried it on my own. Damn that shit is very hard, I was on the bar the whole time. When I got out I went back in my room to get changed, I grabbed thigh high socks that are black, grey cropped hoodie, maroon velvet shorts and pink dinosaur type slippers. Then headed downstairs, I just put the thing highs over my cast so it looks prettier and my slipper over my foot part of my cast.

When I got downstairs the girls were already eating and Aishleen drinking her daily coffee with her mug that I made her.

My mug is maroon and hers is black. It says "be fuc frie" on mine and "st king nds" on hers. Ours together it's "best fucking friends!" I made it for her a while ago. I got the mug for her last Christmas.

Since it's now January 18th, I made it for her actually almost a year ago.

When I gave it to her she loved it. Im glad that she did, I worked hard on it for her. I'm always artistic, I've always made diys since I was young. I made a doll house at the get of 9 out of duck tape. It was for my monster high dolls, i know really funny.

I went into the kitchen and grabbed my cup and grabbed my k cup and put it in my Keurig. I brewed and grabbed my creamer out of he fridge. I have french vanilla flavored and I have sweet cream an french vanilla creamer. Today I went for sweet cream, I only use one tbs of sugar. I grabbed my straw and stirred my coffee and placed it on the counter. I then grabbed oatmeal and put that in a bowl and started a pot of water.

It only took 15 minutes for it to boil and I poured a little bit in because I like it more chunky then soggy. I have banana and cream, and oh my God, you will not regret it.

I gobbled it up and drank my coffee, I then went to the living room and watched more Grey's anatomy.

I then noticed I have a notification from NJH

Him- hey, I've been messaging you!

Me- sorry I've been in the hospital. I totally forgot about Twitter, hey would you like to call one day?

Him- yeah, when though?

Me- now?

Him- can't ATM

Me- ughhh why!!

Him- I'm using my laptop and my phone is broken.

Me- so you are some old guy trying to rape me!

Him- no I mean it. Im young ish!!

Me- uhhuh, more like oldish!!

Me- perve 😂😂

Him- ugh okay, how are you love?

Me- horrible, I'm in a full leg cast from a very bad accident. Surprisingly I'm not dead.

Him- shit, that sucks!

Me- ya, hbu?

Him- good, I think I'm falling for a girl! But I don't think she will actually love me for me!

Me- why? I'm in love with Niall Horan no matter what, even if he wasn't famous I would love him.

Him- whenever I'm around her I just wanna hold her tight

Me- cute, I rather have Niall! 😂😂

Him- whenever I see her I want to kiss her, but I'm afraid!

Me- just go for it!

Him- but I can't! She's amazing! She'll think I only want her for her looks!! I want her for her, she's just the person I want. It's just a bonus that she's absolutely gorgeous.

Me- TELL HER THAT!

Him- she won't believe me. Sadly!

Me- NJH, COME ON

Him- I can't, I'll let you go.

Me- okay dude, message me, I'm free for a while.

[January 19th]
He leans in, and I become nervous, I lean in all excited but scared. We kiss and I don't know what to do about it!

He only wants me for my looks!