I Don't Belong

pop pops day~twenty four

January 26th
Here we go, the day that brings my tattoo to life and one of the worst days ever. My pop pop is gone, my pop pop has been gone for way too long. Nine years without my pop pop by my side.
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Pop pop,
I miss you so dearly, you've been gone for way too long. My happiness for you has been dissolving while you are gone. I sit in my room looking at your picture waiting for you to speak. But all i do is set myself for failure. I miss you so dearly.
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Everytime i go to write to pop pop on this day i just wanna cry. I'm going to try to not cry today and set myself up for failure.

Today i hope i do something exciting. When i finally am able to get up i walk out of my room and go to the bathroom to pee. I cant even go in the bathroom anymore without thinking about niall. Maybe i shouldve made him wait.

When i finish i wash my hands and make my way down stairs. I still ride the chair thing because im not trying to fall on my face while im half asleep. Im a huge night owl and i hate mornings.

When i finally got downstairs i see all my girls. Brianna, Aishleen, and daylinn. Daylinn and Aishleen is talking about our band indecisive and some song ideas. Bri is playing on her texting a lot and blushing, i wonder why.

"Bri, who ya texting?"  I ask being my nosey self.

"Sooooo, ummm, you know how i love Liam Payne?" She tells me with a question.

"Duh, and im in love with..." i stop myself before continuing.

"Wellllllllll, ummm, Niall helped me get his number!! And ever since then we wont stop texting and calling. I love him even more. Hes coming to visit before Shawn leaves." She says all excited.

"Oh my jesus, really?" I say excited for her.

" yes, he will be here the 28th." She tells me and the girls.

"When will i get my celebrity crush, come on!" Daylinn says making all of us laugh including herself.

I dont remember the last group conversation we have had since everyone started work. I miss this.

"Well, times up i have to leave for work, i love you girls" brianna says while grabbing her purse and keys to leave.

We all say our i love yous and goodbyes while she walks out the door. The rest of us girls just chill and talk about our band. Once Kassidy comes here we can fully start this thing. Kass is our manager...

Aishleen pianist/singer/songwriter
Alexia guitarist/singer/songwriter
Daylinn guitarist/drummer/singer/songwriter
Kassidy manager

Thats how we work, and we love it, even though im still practicing on my guitar everyone else is fine. I also wanna learn how to play the violin and piano for extra.

After a while Daylinn leaves with aishleen and im left alone. And as soon as im about to get up to watch netflix theres someone at the door.

I opened the door and niall grabs me and kisses me. I struck but lightning when that happened. I kinda go scared at it.

"Morning beautiful," he tells me while shutting the door.

"Morning to you," i say still in shock.

"I barely slept last night. You need to come over my house tonight and sleep with me." He tells me as im struck again.

"Okay, umm well, sure." I say still shocked.

"Good, i want you, you look so sexy." He tells me and i realize im in an over sized shirt and underwear only.

"Jesus, im so sorry, i didnt realize..." i get cut off with his lips.

"I don't care, i could see you with full on sweat pants, a oversized hoodie and still want you because youre so sexy." He tells me after he aparts his lips from mine.

"I have always loved you. This is like a dream to me, you dont even understand." I tell him as he slowly wraps his arms around me.

"Alexia, youre mine and right now im gonna make you bend over so i could stick myself inside of you. Youre making me want you even more." He whispers in my ears and grabs my girlfriend midway in his sentence and starts rubbing.

"How does that feel?" He asks me while hes still on the outer layer of my underwear"

"Good." I tell him starting to loose words.

"Now, what if i just move this a little bit." He whispers again and moving my pantied of just a little so he can rub my clit.

"Now, do me a favor and sit on the counter," he tells me in a sexy damanding irish accent.

I quickly walk over the the counter making my leg able to lay flat so i dont injury myself more.

"Remove!" He says going pointing right on my hole of my girlfriend ontop of my underwear.

I remove my undies as slow as possible, he couldnt take it anymore so he grabbed it himself and taking it off and kissing my thigh as he used his teeth.

"Im going to make you feel good." He says making me lay down on my back with my legs over his shoulders onto his back.

"Just little pecks," he tells me as he kisses my lips down there.

I quickly shake and feel everything going on. He says, "never mind i dont like pecks, i like using my tongue more," as he kisses again then starts using hise tongue.

"Youre my favorite flavor of ice cream, i cant ever get enough." He tells me as i start to shake feeling myself come undone in just one second and he keeps licking until i cant no more. Every lick getting more and more intense.

And shit, i hear a click.