I Don't Belong

Keep working~Nineteen

Tomorrow Brianna goes for her first interview with just moving here yesterday. I still haven't got a job here which sucks but i will once I'm on my feet and ill start working in a garage for my school well instead of walking into school. At my school we call it co-op, i love it, i dont care if everyone else hates it i love it.

If no one payed attention I'm in automotive, which means i work on cars. I have been in automotive since sophomore year. I love it so much and I don't ever wanna get out of it.

Now that everyone is out of the house I have no clue what to do. I looked at my phone and started to go through instagram. I liked all the post on my recents page.

When i was finished liking the recent posts i heard a knock on the door. I roll myself over to the door and opened it to find Shawn at my door.

"Can i come in?" Shawn asks me and i move out the way to let him in.

"Aishleen is at work," i say wondering why he is here.

"I know i know, but i need help!" He says and i could hear the desperation in his voice.

"Okay, umm, umm, sit." I say still confused on why hes here.

"I like aishleen, a lot, and i feel like this is going fast but i want her to be mine. Even though i know shes not 18 yet. I need help!" He says with a few tears in his eyes.

"i know you cant really help me. But i also have other news that i need to figure out before you help me... Niall is in love with you and wants to be with you, even though hes 26 and youre turning 18 soon he just wants to be with you and he has no clue on how to explain that to you." He says and i let out a big breathe.

"Shawn, just tell her how you feel, she loves you and she will understand." I say trying to stay off the Niall topic.

"I will, but what about you and Niall?" He says and i roll away.

"Thank you shawn for stopping over. I appreciate it, but i truly dont want to talk about that." I say trying to hold the tears back.

He finally gets up and we say our goodbyes, its only January 23rd and i still have a while to go. I just cant believe that this is happening. I just want this fucking cast off my foot.

I have to wait all the way until February 18th to finally get this shit off. But that is the day Aishleens grandfather passed. 2 years to be exact. And i will have 9 years without my pop pop in 6 days.

I just let it sit in when i realize my pop pop has been gone for so long.

I then call my doctor to update him on my leg. He pretty much tells me im doing great and tomorrow he would like to see me for a check up. I text niall since ill of my friends will be working when it is timed for.

Niall agreed to taking me and then asked if he could come over. I said sure because i dont know what to do around him. He makes my stomach go around in swirls and makes me wanna vomit, well i wont vomit but i wish i could. I fell in love with Niall when i was in 5th grade. 2011 to be exact... they were only one year into being a big boy band. I knew of them when they auditioned and of course i thought Niall was a hottie.

When i hear a knock on my door i stop thinking and opened it. Here comes Niall, the handsome stunning man ive dreamed about several times.

He walks in and greets me with a hug. Of course i hug him back, his hugs are always so warm. When we let go he wheels me to the living room.

"Alexia?" He asks as hes nervous.

"Yeah?" I say wondering what hes gonna say back to me.

"You're 17 years old. Almost 18. But i dont think i could wait for you to be 18. I love you and i want to be with you. And the dude you use to text named N.J.H thats me. And i havent texted you on twitter because i didnt want to tag you along anymore. But i want to tell the world of how in love i an with you. And youre seriously all i think about!" I cut him off with my pointer finger up to his lips.

"So youre actually N.J.H, i dont believe you. Text me" i saw trying to wish that its not him. Even though i barely talk to the kid.

My phone dings as i reach up to get my phone. I look and it saw new text 10secs ago. I read what Niall wrote.

Alexia, im sorry that i did this to you. I love you, please be mine! ~N.J.H

I freeze while i finish the message. I look at Niall and quickly look away.

"Alexia?" He says in a very worried face, as though it looks like hes about to cry.

I try not to look in his beautiful eyes and beautiful lovely blonde hair that he always dyes. I look away for quite a while and i forgot im in a wheel chair and stands up. Im walking and it doesnt even hurt. I walk up the stairs and forget about all the pain in my heart and my leg.
When i get to my bedroom i locked the door and landed on my couch. There it is, the pain. I lasted so long without it, why is it coming now.

Next thing i hear are footsteps, then a knock. I unlock my door and sit down. Niall sits beside me and grabs my face as if hes about to kiss me. I look at him and he looks at me. We start to lean in....

To be continued!