law of total madness - personal stuff

thirty nine:

so there's a guy at school and i lowkey really like him...

i don't want to say his name but let's just call him "z".

last week:
i was trying to tell my friends jokes as they waited for their buses.
and one of my friends was not appreciating the high quality dad jokes i'd told her about a hundred times
so i turned to Z to tell him, because he seemed slightly more interested than anyone else.
and my friend answered the joke i was trying to tell Z bEFORE I COULD
so i turn around and say "tHaT'S iT! We'RE nOT fRIeNdS ANyMorE!!!"
and i face Z and go "you're my new best friend"
and he says "okay!"

today:
i was trying to find my friend at lunch and i saw Z instead
so he invited me to sit with him
and my shirt is a bit big on me
so the sleeve falls off my shoulder a lot
and he was sitting next to me
and looks at my shoulder
and goes "too much skin"
and he pulls the shirt up so my shoulder is covered
then it fell again
and he pulled it up again
he ended up doing it like 4 times before he gave up
and he rested his head on my shoulder
and ate cookies with me
then he goes "i'm gonna take a nap"
and lays his head on my leg 
(we were all sitting on the floor)
and a few minutes later
he goes on snapchat on his phone
anD THIS KID TAKES AN UGLY PIC OF ME AND SAVES IT
he goes "cute"
and i was like dYING BC NO
and idek anymore
i was internally screaming because at one point he asked who i'm trying to flirt with
(because of my shirt i guess)
and i was like "no one."
and he was coNVINCED that i was lying

but tbh i just love this shirt lmao
iDk hE'S CUTE

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-lynnie