law of total madness - personal stuff

sixty:

so like, it's 4:30am and i'm crying. i've been really nostalgic all week and remembering a bunch of memories from old friends that i don't see anymore. the one that really made me cry was my friend "B". he wasn't only my friend though, he was my brother's and my mom's, when it was just the two of us. he was like the older brother i never had. and his little brother is my brother's best friend, and his little sister is mine. our moms were even best friends. i've known him for my entire life and now i haven't seen him in year. i was never as close to him as i was with the others, but he always hung out with us. it's not my business, so i don't really know what happened, but he doesn't talk to the rest of his family anymore. i'm not going to ask why, but it just makes me really sad. i found his instagram, and that's when i started sobbing. i found a bunch of old posts where he was so happy and he had the cutest captions about staying positive and i genuinely miss him so much. i don't think i even want to know what happened with him and his family, i just really miss all of them. like, i used to live with them. our moms moved us all down to florida and we all lived together for a few months. this is making me too sad right now.

-lynnie