Lines and rhymes

Night

I lay awake,
the mid of night
Thinking coulds,
woulds and might

Going in circles
not a piece of cake
Thinking what I lost,
and what's at stake

'Cause a fix of caffeine
drowns the voices,
their arguments
and the other noises

It's been a week,
we're drifting away
Can help it, though.
Don't know what to say

I see the patterns.
An' then there's signs.
Tryin'a make some sense
Out of marks and lines

It's hard to think,
what I wanna do
I need some help,
But can't ask you

Ya'see it's a bit
Too hard for me
To say it loud
when I should scream

Against my will
I push it away
the wall is stubborn
won't even sway

It's getting harder
For me to breathe
drawing swords
Only to sheathe

I push my self
But being pulled back
No way ahead
No road, no track

There was a time
When we flew
Then you landed
I crashed too

Fixed my self,
Broken and scarred
The cuts so deep
The job so hard

I thought it's us,
When it was you and I
I was never corrected
And you don't deny

Now I lay awake
Almost day
Trying really hard
keep the voices at bay

For the rest,
The sun will shine
Not for me
The nights are mine

—Halaenoor