Second Chances

Chapter 31

I tucked my phone in my pocket and rushed throughout the door. Since I broke Chrissy's car, her parents were willing to get her a new one since they don't have money issues to deal with, but then I don't like the idea so I told them I would pay and also my dad will help me but then they insisted my offer. Well I already had this feeling that they would reject my offer but still I'm hoping I could change their minds, it would be a lot easier for me to lessen all the heaviness I have in my chest.

I saw my dad's old truck parked outside the apartment and I decided to use it so that it could help me reach to Mason's place faster. I took his car keys in the fish bowl near the TV and without any word I rushed into his truck. My hands were shaking as I tighened my grip on the steering wheel and I felt sweat dripping on my forehead but I don't have time to worry about it or even just wiping it off.

I saw teenagers hanging out in the streets, laughing as if its gonna be their last day, living their life to the fullest. I felt sick because to be honest I envy them. Every smiles and laughters were like punches to my chest. Because I wanted that, I want to feel that too. Is it too much to ask?

I slowly stepped on the breaks as I get a glimpse of his house, I can't stop my knees from shaking and my hands tightly gripped on the stirring wheel. Breathe. Breathe. Breathe. The tension I felt was crazy and I kept on telling myself that theres no turning back. I need to fix this, fix us. I'm not sure if this will work but at least I would try, I don't want to make the same mistakes, I'm not gonna let any crap define me anymore. That is not me anymore, since I met Mason, I knew I could be a better person and it helped me to be strong.

And now is the time.

I carefully parked the truck across Mason's house and stepped out as I walked silently towards his front door. My heart beats so fast and my knees were shaking, praying that I won't fall on the ground. I remembered the first time in his house, it was one of the things that I'd always treasure, my memories with him, every single moment we've spent together, those times that he used to teased me and fooled around just to get my attention. It all worked, obviously, he got me. All of me. And its my time now to get what's mine. I nervously knocked twice on his front door and surprisingly I was welcomed by a gorgeous, half naked man with only dark jeans covered his sinfully perfect body. As his six pack were so admiring I could just drool and die.

"Anna?" His voice was hot as the summer in Asia.

My whole body froze but I tried to fight for it. "Hi." I took a deep breath and smiled.

His eyes were confused. "Hey." And suddenly his eyes relaxed and its a signal for me that he's okay to see me.

"Mind if I come in?" I gave him a warm smile and trying to hide my trembling knees.

Praying in my head that I won't fall on the ground.

He stared at me as if he wasn't sure what to do. "Sure, c'mon in." He turned around and I felt electricity hit throughout my spine and then I noticed him bare footed. I bit my lower lip. Damn I love looking at him walking around in his house without any foot wear. I don't know but it turns me on, for some reason.

"Have a sit, you want anything? Uh, I wasn't able to go to the grocery so-"

"Its okay, besides I'm here because..I, I wanna talk to you." I almost choke to death with my own words. I couldn't speak straight and its not doing me any good.

"Oh. What about?" He asked still standing beside the couch and keeping his distance.

My chest expanded on a deep breath, my body responding to the proximity of his. Even though he stood several feet away, I could feel the heady attraction, the magnetic pull of being near the other half of my soul.