NOTES | minsung a.u ON HOLD

eighteenth note

05/02/19

m;
what do you mean? Is he straight?

p.s I wouldn't have told you if you said you didn't know him.

j;
idk how to say this....uh it's not that his straight he is just taken?

p.s makes sense.

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Jisung walked into school hand in hand with Hwang Hyunjin.

He was on cloud nine.

It felt amazing to have someone to be affectionate with.

When the two stepped into the busy hallways eyes immediately landed on them. Nobody said a word and only watched the new couple stride down the hallway. Jisung smiled up at his new boyfriend who looked down at him with the same expression. Jisung added a skip in his step, reaching his locker. Standing in front of it were his four best friends all immersed in conversation. Hyunjin was skeptical about joining Jisung to his locker, not wanting to cause any disturbance.

Once Jisung reached for his lock was when everyone noticed their appearance.

Chan was the first to speak with a confused, "hey Jisung...and Hyunjin?"

Hyunjin gave them a small smile and leaned on the locker next to Jisung's. Jisung opened it and tried to ignore the whispering from his friends and the skeptical gaze of Seungmin.

"So babe, what's your first class?" Hyunjin asked, crossing his arms.

There was a dramatic gasp heard from beside them, which belonged to Felix.

"B-babe?!" Felix asked, "the rumours are true?!"

Jisung flinched and carefully turned around, "y-yeah..."

Hyunjin only smiled and wrapped his arm around Jisung's shoulders. Jisung watched as Seungmin stared at Hyunjin in quiet shock. The boy shook his head and turned away to walk down the hallway.

Felix gave a glare to Jisung before running down the hallway after Seungmin, "Seungmin, wait!"

The squirrel like boy felt a pang in his chest at the thought of hurting his friend. Although he quickly disregarded it when he felt Hyunjin squeeze his shoulder reassuringly.

"Let's go, I'll walk you to your class," he smiled, guiding the boy away from his friends.

Jisung glanced back at Jeongin and Chan with a sad gaze. The two whispered to each other as they watched the new couple walk away. Jisung's frown replaced with a smile as he looked up to Hyunjin.

He didn't want his stupid friends to ruin his chance at a relationship.

Eventually lunch had rolled around and Jisung was dreading it a lot. He had met Hyunjin at his locker, who said he'd be sitting with his friends today. Jisung understood and decided he'd sit with his own friends as well.

Although, he was weary about it. He didn't want to be welcomed with judging gazes. Even though he knew that is what he would receive. He turned the corner to see them all sitting in their usual spot at Jisung's locker. Putting on a smile, he walked over and took a seat with everyone.

"Hey guys!" He chirped, opening his lunch.

Felix was the first to acknowledge him with a halfhearted smile, "hey."

Jeongin of course greeted Jisung much more chipper than Felix, giving his Hyung a hug.

"So..." Chan started, "You and Hyunjin, eh?"

Jisung glances up from his food and nodded, "he wanted to be boyfriends so I thought, why not?"

The three in front of him all dropped their jaw's simultaneously. Jisung's brows furrowed at there sudden looks of surprise, chewing his food confused.

"Pardon me? 'Why not'?" Felix said, disappointment lacing his words.

"Yeah? We already slept together so..." Jisung said.

It made sense to Jisung. He slept with Hyunjin, so wouldn't he want to be in a relationship with him? Should it not that be how that works?"

"Jisung..." Chan sighed and shook his head, "you're putting your relationship with Seungmin on the line here because 'why not'? Do you even have genuine feelings for Hyunjin?"

Jisung was caught off guard from the question. He had to of had feelings for him right? He felt nice when they were close, he liked kissing and holding hands.

"Of course I do..." Jisung trailed off with a tight-knitted expression.

"I don't think you do," Chan said, "I think you're confu-"

"No! I'm not. I do like him and you guys can't be the judges of that!" He shouted, suddenly feelings very conflicted and hurt.

He noted the shocked looks of his friends before quickly packing his lunch to find somewhere else to sit.

Standing up, the three boys watched Jisung walk away with solemn looks painted on their faces. Jisung didn't spare a glance behind him as he made his way to the cafeteria. He was now trapped in his thoughts, not sure what was wrong. He had thought he liked Hyunjin and that's why he had so many urges. He also thought, if he was with Hyunjin maybe the urges would go away, or Hyunjin would be his outlet. Where he would express his urges.

Although now with his friends input, he wasn't sure where he stood anymore. His thoughts were currently even more jumbled and confusing than before.

All Jisung was sure of is that....he needed to think.

(A/N):

Sorry for the late update, and SHORT CHAPTER FUCKING AGAIN.

UGH I HATE ME SO MUCH.

IM REALLY SORRY, LIKE IM TRYING TO LENGTHEN THESE OUT BUT WITH HOW I HAVE EVERYTHING FORMATTED THERE IS NOTHING I CAN DO..... PLEASE FORGIVE ME AHHHHH DDD:

Anyway beside that, life is pretty hectic.

I have a doctors appointment soon for lady issues which I'm terrified for. I won't go into detail because it's pretty personal but DON'T WORRY!

I might be a little inactive soon because of that, hopefully it's nothing serious. I'm sure I'm just worried for nothing though :)

Thank you guys for reading!! See you next chapter!

~ ANDY