NOTES | minsung a.u ON HOLD

twenty-fourth note

13/02/19
m;
that's true...but Jeongin only had one friend group so that means you're also friends with Felix, Jisung, and Seungmin?

j;
HOW DO YOU KNOW OUR NAMES?!

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Jisung absolutely did not want to show up to school the next day. Luckily Seungmin vowed to walk him to his locker, which Jisung was very thankful for. The second year boy was up all night thinking about what he should do. Lately he has been thinking so impulsively that he felt like now he was just overthinking the whole situation.

The one and only thing he was looking forward to anymore was his math class. Those notes with whoever was on the other end were keeping him sane. It was a safe haven from all the drama currently taking place in his life.

Jisung found himself particularly unlucky lately. Before loosing his 'V' card, he led a seemingly average life. Now, he had drama like every petty and immature high school student. His home life remained the same, as his parents nor his step brothers new about what was going on. As if he'd ever tell them anyway.

Jisung currently sat in his math class, not really following along with the lesson. His brain was working hard but just not at the correct tasks.

"Alright, for the remainder of the period I'd like you to arrange yourself into groups of three. Preferably with people sat close to you. Work on those textbook questions please."

Jisung's ears perked at this and he looked around the classroom. There was no one he really recognized, or knew much about in this class which sucked royally for moments like these.

"Jisung?"

His turned his head to the boy's in front of him who were trying to get his attention waving their hands.

"O-oh, yes?"

One of them seemed very uninterested as he sat leaned back and arms crossed. He was more focused on the other boy rather than Jisung or the class work. The one who was turned around trying to get Jisung's attention seemed much more friendly and had a soft voice.

"I was wondering if you'd like to join us in a group?" He asked gesturing to himself and the boy beside him.

Jisung felt really bad as those two knew his name, but he had no idea who they were.

"Um, sure," He replied, scooting his chair closer to the desk.

"If you didn't know already my name is Renjun and this is Jeno," He said introducing himself and other guy.

Jisung smiled and nodded, "nice to meet you guys."

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It was lunch time and Hyunjin occupied himself outside in the courtyard. He was laying on the grass part underneath some shade, mind racing.

Initially he was confused, but think about his situation made him even more confused.

"Jisung I think we should break up."

The moment Hyunjin saw Jisung in the hallway, he broke up with him. Immediately after he made his way to the courtyard to do some reflecting. Which didn't help at all.

He felt defeated in a sense. He was unsuccessful with Changbin, and lost his friendship in a result of trying to pursue him. That was all very obvious, although extremely frustrating for Hyunjin. Trying to fill the gaping hole in his heart did not work either, as he completely just took advantage of poor Jisung. By no means was he correct for doing that either, and Hyunjin was fully aware of that. He still did it though.

Breaking it off was a spur of the moment thing. He didn't put much thought into it, but he knew he was tired of using others to try and find love. Maybe he just wasn't supposed to have anyone. To him it felt that way for sure. It felt like every force of the universe was telling him no. There was no love for him out there. Just lustful stares and meaningless crushes.

Letting out a long sigh Hyunjin sat up off the grass. The first thing he noticed was a familiar boy sitting at a picnic table a few feet away. It was that same first year who had stared at Hyunjin ever since he entered this school. He learned that the boy's name was Seungmin, and close friends with Jisung.

Hyunjin noticed that Seungmin was yet again, staring.

Getting rather annoyed as he wasn't in a good mood in the first place, Hyunjin asked, "What are you looking at?"

He made sure to be loud enough that the boy would hear, but not too loud he sounded threatening.

Seungmin flinched, eyes widening at being acknowledged.

Hyunjin tilted his head, awaiting some sort of response, "I'm talking to you," he added.

Seungmin cleared his throat, "and i'm looking at you. Problem?" He asked, feeling suddenly confident.

"Yes actually, if you have no intention other than staring at me please leave," Hyunjin said.

Assuming that would be the end of the conversation, he laid back down on the grass.

"Well...I was curious if you're alright."

Hyunjin wasn't sure how to answer that, if it was even a question. The two didn't know each other very well, and not to mention Seungmin is Jisung's friend. So why would the younger boy be interested in anything Hyunjin was up to?

"You broke up with Jisung."

Hyunjin scoffed, "yeah thanks for that reminder."

"Why?"

Rolling his eyes he responded, "ask him."

Seungmin let out a small sigh and shook his head, "yeah I tried, he didn't wanna talk about it."

"Well neither do I."

Seungmin pursed his lips and nodded, "Right." He paused, "I'll be on my way then."

Hyunjin never responded, nor did he look up. Although, he ears perked at Seungmin's last words before he left the courtyard.

"I'm not sure what I ever saw in you.."

(A/N):

Wow is the story actually going somewhere?

Also hey, it's been a minute (month)

I graduated? Kind of?

Hasn't hit me yet.

ANYWAY HOW ARE YALL?

As always thanks for reading and sticking around while I was on a semi-hiatus thing.

I'm sure I lost 75% of my readers on this story and ya know- that's fine :') I understand though since I legit haven't updated in a month lmao.