NOTES | minsung a.u ON HOLD

twenty-third note pt. 2

"S-seungmin?"

"I'm sorry."

The word had fallen from Jisung's lips several times.

"Stop. I get it, okay?" Seungmin sighed, body spread out on his bed.

The tears stopped about twenty minutes ago, and Jisung was sprawled out on a blanket on the floor beneath Seungmin's. The younger boy was kind enough to let Jisung stay the night, luckily his parents weren't as strict as they appeared to be.

"You never told me what happened..." Seungmin trailed off, staring up at the ceiling.

Jisung sighed. He knew if he talked about it, tears would begin to fall down his cheeks again. His eyes already felt heavy and he knew for certain they were blood shot.

"I don't wanna talk about it."

Seungmin rolled his eyes, "you're not doing this right now Jisung."

There was a moment of silence between the two boys before tears began to slide down Jisung's cheeks again.

"I don't know what's going on with me," he sobbed, bringing a hand to his face to cover his puffy red eyes.

Seungmin took this as a cue to sit up, "detail. I can't help if you wont be specific."

Jisung let out a whine and rolled over onto his stomach, shoving his face into the pillow. He let out muffled noises, earning yet another eye roll from Seungmin.

"Jisung, come on."

He felt selfish. He didn't want to burden Seungmin with all these feelings he had swimming around in his chest. Even after getting with the boy that Seungmin was interested in, here he sat. Ready to help Jisung.

"You're such a good friend!!" He sobbed dramatically, lifting his head off the pillow.

Seungmin couldn't help but let out a snort. Covering his mouth he looked away, finding the boys sudden outburst funny.

"Don't laugh!" Jisung whined.

Seungmin let out a chuckle, "well it's kind of hard not to!"

Jisung frowned and sat up.

"Just tell me what's going on."

Seungmin was a head thinker. Jisung knew that. He was great at giving advice, unlike Jisung. He was a heart thinker, that much being obvious. He was good at listening, rather than giving advice. He was so used to people coming to him with all their baggage, letting out his feelings felt unfair.

"I just....I'm so confused."

Seungmin nodded and gestured for Jisung to carry on.

Letting out a hefty sigh, he said, "I thought I liked Hyunjin. He made me feel good so I thought that was what I wanted, was to be in a relationship with him."

"I don't understand what happened. He came onto me and I pushed him away. I'm not supposed to do that to my boyfriend right?"

Seungmin pursed his lips, "well...you have always jumped into things last minute. I personally think you are just lonely, maybe yearning for a physical relationship."

Jisung remembered his thoughts of Minho. He was daydreaming of him while in the same room as Hyunjin. That had to mean something, right? On top of that he has had thoughts of stripping down his own best friend. Was he simply just lonely? Did he really just want anyone?

"I was thinking of Minho and got a boner. That's why Hyunjin came into me."

Seungmin's eyes widened, "you told Hyunjin you got a boner for Minho hyung?!"

"No! He just saw the boner and t-thought I-"

Seungmin nodded finally understanding what Jisung had meant, "ahh I see."

Jisung pouted and nodded, wiping the tears left on his cheeks.

"Why Minho?"

All Jisung could do to answer that question was shrug. He true hadn't had a clue. Lee Minho was very, very attractive which was completely undeniable. Although, both boys didn't know each other very well. Plus, Jisung was almost positive he liked Hyunjin prior to this incident.

"You can't just shrug," Seungmin chuckled, "there had to be something."

Letting out a huff Jisung flailed his arms and leaned back, letting his body make contact with Seungmin's floor, "well....I even thought about kissing Felix once," he mumbled quietly.

Jisung kind if hoped that statement would fly over Seungmin's head, although that was just wishful thinking.

"Oh my gosh...you're definitely sexually frustrated," Seungmin muttered, an amused smirk forming on his face.

Jisung lifted his head off the floor with a risen eyebrow, "what?"

"Jisung you lonely dumbass, you want some dick."

Sexually frustrated?

"Okay but why would I push away Hyunjin if I just wanted some dick?"

"That seems to be an internal problem, you gotta fix it yourself," Seungmin shrugged pulling out his phone.

Jisung gaped and sat up from the floor, "that's it?"

The younger boy didn't respond as he began to scroll through his device. With another defeated whine Jisung stood up and crawled onto Seungmin's bed with him.

"Cuddle me."

"No."

"Why not!"

"Because I don't want your teenage sexual problems all over me."

"Seungmin please~ I just want cuddles."

"No, stop whining and get off my bed."

"You're mean."

"What else is knew."

(A/N):

Yo it's Andy in the building

I just spent 4 hours thinking about doing school work without actually doing it :D

That my friends is what I call, dumb bitch thinking.

Thank you guys for reading and I apologize for the late update :(

~ Andyy