I never loved you » Chae Hyungwon

Chapter XXXI

Song of the Chapter
already gone - sleeping at last

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"I'm sorry" are the only words that come out of his mouth.

"Well okay... I don't know much of you anymore so can you maybe take me to places that can make me remember you?" I ask him and he sighs.

"Okay" he says and takes my hand to bring me to a place, I just walk after him, why does it feels so good to hood hands with him?

Eventually we enter a room with a kitchen..

Why?

"What is this?" I aks him and he just smirks.

"A room.. think deep Faith, I want you to remember the things that happened in this room" Hyungwon says and I look disgusted.

"Oh no did we?.."

"No no not here" 

"Did we do it somewhere else tho?" 

"Um.. yes" 

Alright shook.

"I can't remember what happened here" I tell him.

"Please.. focus Faith" Hyungwon says and comes closer.

He puts both hands on my shoulders and shakes me softly.

"Focus please" He repeats.

"Well I can't really focus if someone is shaking me." I tell him and he stops shaking me but keeps his hands on my shoulders.

I close my eyes and think deeply only to remember nothing.

"I'm sorry Hyungwon but I really can't remember" I say disappointed in myself.

"Umm" I see that Hyungwon is hesitating.

"Alright.. let me help you a bit" He says and before I know the hands that were on my shoulders are now cupping my face and he comes closer to me.

Aaand, our lips touch.

It's a soft, gentle kiss.

Suddenly I remember quite a bit, just a conversation we had in this room, the feeling I have with this memory is a safe one.

Hyungwon stops the kiss and smiles.

"I remember a bit" I tell him and he just smiles, which is adorable.

"Now let me take you to a place that might be the worst choice of my life.." Hyungwon says.

"Wait but don't you want to know what I remember?" I ask him and he shakes his head.

"Listen Faith, The memory is probably this perfect view of me.. I'm not perfect.. I'm far from perfect, I'm the worst human being on this planet and-"

"No that's not true, you'r-"

"Let me speak Faith, I am not good, you deserve a man who treats you right, and I'm not that man.. so let me take you to a place that will change your mind about me, please.." He says with almost tears in his eyes.

"No.. I don't want my mind changed, I believe you are actually good" I tell him and come closer but he backs off.

"Faith you deserve to know the real me, please come with me" He says and before I can talk he takes my hand and pulls me with him.

We get inside of his car and drive to this one place.

"Hyungwon listen to me... we can start over, we can fall in love again, I really want to, please don't let me see how bad you were because that is the past, you are a different person" I say when we are driving for 10 minutes.