The Sacrifices of Fame

Chapter Nineteen

"Rising pop star Lauren Elizabeth has been admitted into a psychiatric hospital. The young star had been in the news because she got arrested in France a few days before she got admitted back in the US. Fans and friends have been sending their love to Lauren on social media and are talking about mental health awareness. Everyone here at ABC is wishing Lauren and her family the best."
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So I don't even know where to start. I guess at the beginning which is me talking to Ruby and Dad in my room. After I said what I said they took me to the hospital. Ruby couldn't stay I didn't really want her to anyways. She shouldn't have to deal with me when I'm like this. I was in the hospital for like a day and while I was there I had to talk to a lot of people. I didn't really want to talk though. They were asking me questions I didn't have answers to. After being in the hospital for about three days I was taken to another hospital. This one is different though. According to the people here this is where they send people who are waiting for beds to open up at the in patient hospitals. When I got here this morning they searched me again for god knows what. Then they brought me to a room with a tv, a bed, and a few chairs which is where I currently am. Dad is sitting in one of the chairs along the wall. He hasn't really said much other than when he's needed to. I feel tired so I lay down and try to fall asleep. Before I feel myself drift off there's a knock at the door. I open my eyes and look up. It's one of the staff members who brought me in.

"Hi Lauren I have someone here to see you."

I raise my eyebrows and look at Dad who shrugs. I hear footsteps and then Alex walks through the door. I roll my eyes and lay back down closing my eyes.

"I'm sorry I wasn't here sooner I couldn't get a flight last night so late." Alex mumbles.

"I'm just glad you're here." Dad responds.

"Serv, you look like shit go home and take a shower and eat something."

I sit up quick and look at Dad. He does look like shit but if he leaves then I'll be here with Alex alone.

"Hey, I won't be gone long and I'll get you some clothes and food." Dad says.

I sigh and just nod my head. He forces a smile on his face before pulling me in for a hug. I don't know why but this hug feels different. He kisses me on my forehead before leaving with the staff member who brought Alex here. Alex sits one chair down from where Dad was sitting.

"Lauren can we please talk?"

Well that didn't take long. I ignore Alex and lay down trying to go back to sleep which I know isn't going to happen.

"Fine you don't need to talk just listen. When I said I couldn't deal with you anymore I didn't mean you physically. I meant your behavior. I didn't know what to do or how to help you. All you did was lay in bed all day and when you finally got out of bed you got arrested. I know that things have been difficult lately but Lauren you've always been able to bounce back. I just don't know what happened. How did you go from being invincible to wanting to-"

Alex stops talking so I sit up and look at her. She's looking up at the ceiling I'm assuming to stop herself from crying.

"To die? It's not a bad word you know you can say it. I want to die." I say.

Alex looks at me and I see tears falling down her face. She gets up from her chair and sits next to me. I try to move but Alex wraps her arms around me and I lay my head on her chest. If I said her holding me isn't nice I'd be lying.

"Your father and I have been talking. You're coming back to France with me. Moving you back and forth is too much. You need a stable environment." Alex says.

I just sigh and think about everything. I'm a mess to say the least and I just need to focus on me. I don't really know what that means or what focusing on me feels like. But I'm going to figure it out.
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So how would you feel if this book was no longer discontinued? It's taken me literally a year to write this but it feels good. I have so many ideas you guys aren't even ready.