Love me Tender (Stuart Sutcliffe & John Lennon) ~Rewriting this~

Chapter 5

Lucy's POV:

What was I doing? Why was I acting so stupid? At least I had developed some feelings for him too. Even though I often pushed the thoughts about loving Stu aside, they were still anchored deep inside me... So why didn't I say 'Yes' right away to this question I have actually been waiting for for the last weeks?
I couldn't understand myself. Or maybe I could.. I suppose I simply was not ready for a relationship yet and was completely overwhelmed by the suddenness of his question - just like I told Stuart.
And it's not like it is normal to be asked whether you'd like to be someone's girlfriend...  No that was it!
I had to calm down. I hadn't done anything wrong and if Stu really loved me, he would wait for a reply from he.
Moreover I hadn't told him that I didn't love him, so everything still was possible, right?

At the moment when we had kissed everything had felt so wonderful, life seemed so much better and I saw everything in a different light. It was a feeling like together we could manage everything on earth and go through the hardest times together.
I was sure that we two were meant to be together. But when Stuart pulled his hand away and off mine, I wanted nothing more than to start crying.
The wonderful feeling that I had had before was gone all of the sudden. The fear was rising inside me that I had ended everything before it could even start.

No, like I said before, everything was alright.
The truth was that I was surprised! I was simply surprised because of the sudden kiss which made the unexpected question even more overwhelming... It was all too much and I hadn't been able to think straight anymore.

(A/N):
Sorry for this very short chapter. Even after rewriting it, there was not a lot to get out of it...