Love me Tender (Stuart Sutcliffe & John Lennon) ~Rewriting this~

Chapter 23

Lucy's POV:

It was about one week later when I began to feel the guilt growing inside of me.

Why was I so cruel..

John loved me with all his heart and I mostly pretended to love him back, in fact, I was only scared to be completely left alone.

And slowly a specific thought crept into my mind, there was something missing.

I couldn't say what it was but I knew that I wasn't complete. Deep inside my heart, there was a little hole, but I didn't know what it is.

John probably recognized that I lately wasn't as happy as I once was but he never lost a word about it.

Paul's POV:

Since the fight between Stu and John, I had to play the bass because Stu never came to the rehearsal again.

But I tried to keep contact with him.

I used to hate Stu because he was always better than me in John's eyes and I was jealous, but I felt sympathy for the poor guy.

It's not easy to lose your best friend and your girlfriend at the same time. He was completely alone now and I wanted to help a bit.

So, two weeks after Stu had left Lucy, I went to his house.

When I rang the bell, he needed about five minutes until he finally opened the door.

"Come in, Paul." He growled and led me to his living room. I sat on the couch and saw several bottles on the little table and on the floor.

"Erm Stu? Did you drink all this beer and whiskey?" I gestured to the bunch of bottles.

Stu let himself fall on the chair and glared at me confused

"Yes, I did. Do you want some, too?"

I quickly shook my head

"No, thanks. But you know, this isn't the right way to forget someone, don't you?"

Stu glanced concerned at all the empty bottles and sighed.

"I know, Paul. And it's not like I'm drunk all the time.. I just do it like in Hamburg; when I'm too tired to work, I drink some alcohol and take some speed. And surprisingly, it always helps!"

"Of course it helps!" Slowly I became angry. This man was going to ruin his whole life.

"But Stuart, you also need some rest! Anyway, why do you have to work so much?"

"Since Lucy & John are gone from my life, I've got nothing to live for. I only have my paintings. When I paint, all the pain flows away. So I have to work on my paintings all the time; night and day." Stu yawned. "And now since John and Lucy are dating, it's even worse."

I stuttered in shock "That's not healthy at all. Please stop with that!"

But Stuart only shook his head "I know what I'm doing Paul. I don't need someone who watches over me!" He was getting nervous and he impatiently shoved me to the front door.

"You have to go now, Paulie. If I don't hurry up, my painting will be ruined."

I sighed and stepped out of his house "Alright, but please call me if you ever need anything and don't work too much."

Shortly after I had left his house, the door shut behind me and I quickly went to John's house to tell Lucy what I've just heard.

A/N:
Happy New Year to all of you! I hope you'll have a wonderful 2015 ! :*