Love me Tender (Stuart Sutcliffe & John Lennon) ~Rewriting this~

Chapter 12

~at 1am~
Lucy's POV:

I stared at the ceiling and thought about what had happened on the beach.

I sighed deeply and turned my head to the side to see Stu laying there. His chest raised and fell softly with his breath and he snored quietly.
He's so cute when he's asleep

My heart ached a bit at that sentiment.
Oh what have I done? I can't tell Stu.. He would hate me and John for the kiss.. But why did I like the kiss? Did I fall in love with John?

I had to get out of this bed, out of this house, just away from Stu. Yes, I definitely needed to be on my own for a time to clear my head and to organize my wild and confusing thoughts. A walk would help me.

I silently slid out of the bed, which I shared with Stuart, and slowly got dressed, afraid of waking him up.

Luckily he had a good sleep and I was able to exit the house without having to explain my behavior to Stu.

Lost in my thoughts about the whole situation and about my feelings, I erred around in the streets of Liverpool.

Suddenly I spotted a man who came out of a pub. He looked drunk and seemed to be really angry. I was turning around to lead back home when I heard him shout at me.

"Hey, Lucy! Wait for me! We need to talk!"

I sighed and walked faster, pretending to haven't heard anything. John was the last person I wanted to talk to.

But John didn't let loose. Even though he was drunk, he ran to me and firmly gripped my wrist, stopping me from walking.

"Lucy, listen.. We have to talk about the... you know, the kiss.."

"But I don't want to talk about it, John. It has happened and ! Now we should just forget it." Scared and angry at the same time, I tried to get my hand free. Everything I wanted now was to run away.

John shook his head eagerly and pulled me into an alley, then he pushed me against the wall of a house. I struggled, still trying to get myself free.

He was too strong for me. His hands held my shoulders pressed against the wall and he pushed his knee between my legs.

After a while I gave up and just looked at him with fear in my eyes. When his face came closer to mine, I could smell the stench of alcohol on his breath.

"Lucy, I know you want me. I know you love me. Why don't you be my girlfriend and you'll have a good time with me"

He smirked at his last words and pressed his lips against mine. On his tongue, which he had shoved in my mouth, was the taste of beer. The kiss was disgusting and it didn't get better when he let his hand wander under my skirt and between my inner thighs.

I need to get free! Now!