Love me Tender (Stuart Sutcliffe & John Lennon) ~Rewriting this~

Chapter 13

A/N:
Warning:
This chapter contains sexual contents.

Lucy's POV:

I still had no energy to get myself free and my voice cracked as soon as I wanted to scream. I breathed heavily when he started to rub his fingers on my private parts.

On the one hand, I didn't want it to happen, but on the other hand, I was curious.. I've never experienced something like that before. Stu was always very gentle in bed and this was going to be different.

John had broken the kiss and was now nibbling on my neck while his hands were busy between my legs. He had entered his fingers into me and fingered me now -more because he thought it was necessary than doing it for my pleasure.

It wasn't the best feeling, but I liked it anyway.

After a while he lifted my legs up and slid his length into me before having his way with me.

At the beginning I was shaking, but shortly after, the pleasure was overwhelming and I decided to go with it.

His thrusts were rather rough and deep and hurt me in the first moment. However, I began to like that kind of rough sex. It felt so different from everything I had experienced so far and I was almost sad when John finished.

He set me back down, kissed my forehead and gave me a shy smile

"You see, it wasn't that bad, was it?"

Hasty I pulled my panties up and looked at him, not sure what to do. The only thing I did was nodding.

That seemed to strengthen his self-confidence and John asked, grinning cheekily

"Lucy, I know you don't wanna be my girlfriend.. But would you at least like to have an affair with me, huh?"

John stared in my eyes and I didn't have the courage to reject him so I stuttered hesitantly

"Uhm.. Y-yes, John. That would be nice!"

To make it more convincing, I forced a faked smile on my face.

John nodded his head happily and kissed my lips, then turned around to go.

"See you tomorrow, baby!"

I waved him quietly and went home as well.

The whole way I was so angry at myself.

Why couldn't I say No?! I don't even want it and I just pretend to like John as much as he likes me... I'm a whore! I have sex with a guy without loving or wanting it

Sad and dissatisfied with my behaviour, I arrived at home and sat at the kitchen table..

A/N:
I'm sorry this chapter is probably the worse one in my whole story