A Different Divergent: Everyday Love

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Chapter 10

A burning heat fills my bedroom and swirls around my body, trying to set me on fire. Why am I so damn hot? I try to stretch my tired, sore muscles but I can't move an inch. I drag my heavy eyelids open, and all I can see is the top of Tobias's head. He's wrapped around me like a feather boa, his head cushioned on my breasts, and his legs resting squarely on top of mine, pinning the lower half of my body to the mattress, sound asleep. It's no wonder I can't move. He weighs a fricking ton! And my God it feels like someone turned the furnace up to about 100 degrees in here.

I'm surprised when I see us both clad in yesterday's clothes until I remember we didn't bother changing into our PJs after the emotional rollercoaster we took last night. We were both exhausted, physically and emotionally. To be honest, I still feel a bit wrung out. I roll my head to the right so I can get a better look at his sleeping face and smile. He seems very content now. Who am I to bother him?

I gently run my fingers through his messy tresses, which are curling up on the ends as I gaze at his slumbering face. As hard as I try not to, my thoughts drift to last night and my heart constricts painfully. I hope he's in a better mood this morning and not so hard on himself. If I feared that he would hurt me or, God forbid, one of our kids, he would not be here right now. The casual caressing of his hair finally causes him to stir. His eyelids flutter open, and he looks confused for a moment then a happy smile unfurls on his lips. He snuggles closer to my breasts and sighs.

"Good morning, baby," I chuckle.

"Morning, love," he groggily says his voice full of sleep but he doesn't move a muscle, which makes my heart sing but I am beginning to lose all feeling in my legs.

"Um, as much as I hate to see you to move, Tobias, my legs are asleep," I say, never stopping the rhythmic movement of my fingers in his hair. He groans in protest as he rolls off me, and my legs start tingling as the blood comes rushing back. I gingerly move them, wincing. They feel like two dead weights.

"Are you okay?" he asks sitting straight up, no sign of drowsiness left, concern thick in his voice.

"Yeah but both of my legs are tingling something fierce," I say, my face scrunched up in pain. He knowingly shakes his head and wraps his big hands around one of my legs and starts tenderly massaging the life back into it. It hurts even worse to begin with as he works his way from my thigh to my toes but the prickling sensation goes away sooner. "The other one now, baby." He gently places my left leg back on the mattress and picks up the right, giving it the same special treatment. "Oh, your hands feel so good," I moan and he chuckles softly.

"I'm sorry, love," he says, still working magic on my calf with his nimble fingers. "I think I passed out and didn't move a muscle all night."

"You do seem to really like my breasts," I laugh.

"That I do," he says, throwing me a warm, easy smile. We gaze at each other as he massages my foot. "How is your arm?"

"It doesn't hurt, I promise," I say.

"I need to see it," he says as he gently rests my leg back on the mattress. I sit up so we are nearly nose to nose.

"I'm afraid to show it to you," I whisper, remembering how it looked in the bright bathroom light earlier this morning. What does it look like now?

"Why are you afraid, love?" he very patiently asks, his Four demeanor masking his own fear but I can feel it. I lower my head and stare at our joined hands. He puts his finger on my chin and tips it up. "Look at me. Talk to me."

"I don't want you upset, Tobias," I softly say. "You didn't mean to."

"You are definitely right about that," he sighs, "but the truth of the matter is I grabbed you when I was furious with you, and I left bruises on your arm and not a little one, Tris. I left my whole fucking hand!" He grimaces and shakes his head then takes a deep breath. "I am so sorry, love. I didn't mean to lose it. I'm not upset with you, I swear. I'm pissed as hell at myself. I have to deal with these ... feelingsand it will help to see it."