The girl people thought they knew

Chapter 3

(!!!Before you read this chapter, make sure you have seen the show Riverdale because this chapter is based off one of the episodes!!!)

His tan, glistening skin, showing his tanned body and making my mouth water overtime his body flexed while lifting the heavy boxes and putting them in the loading truck, his fluffy hair shinning and looking so sleek waving in the air with his every move. I can't help but stare and bite my bottom lip in admire, I can see his lips curve up into a smile every time he looks my way and his eyes just draw me in closer and closer, they are are a dark set of brown-ish black and they look so mysterious they just want you to love them and not get lost in the darkness. What is he wearing? Well I kind of wish he is shirtless cause who doesn't love a sexy body like his and showing their... well body. But anyways, he's CURRENTLY wearing a white tank top that if you get wet it will show his muscles, which it will because of my drool, I have a problem, plus he's wearing jeans that nicely fit his butt and fit his athletic legs and wrap around his thin waist. God I beg you to help me with my weird problem, why must have you made me like this????

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I feel like that fantasy was like Archie, but i'm not a teacher that is sleeping with him even though KJ Apa is literally the hottest non-ginger I have ever seen and he has the sexiest body of all the non-gingers ever like holy smoke show. Yeah it was definitely based off of that show, I mean the guy I am thinking of his hotter but I mean that's my opinion and literally probably the only one cause KJ Apa is HOT. 

I don't really understand what my problem is, like I have an active mind all the time and I can basically never stop thinking so i'm not too sure on how I can think of something that detailed and... well... something so steamy and aaaaaaarrrrggghhhh I really try to stop thing about things like that and clearly I can't stop myself and it's mostly when i'm bored like in class or on the road to hockey, with my dad is the worst part. I basically think about these things almost every other day or once a week and it's mostly just the same stuff or something new and more... more... realistic. Like the other day I had one and it felt so real that I almost actually cried because of how sad my love life is, like my last boyfriend, or more like my only ex, I have actually never thought of things like that, but I want to say he brought something out of me like a "kinky" side and a more bitchier and depressing side cause when I broke up with him I could never really make up my mind on why and so nowadays I just say that he stressed me out plus other reasons like; Stressing me out, making me feel like I was enough and that I bored him cause we only walked around places and stayed at his place, I think I was the one getting bored of him and that I wanted a change, I mean I could have talked to him and he would have done that in a heartbeat but I don't know, also him and I dating kind of ended my ex friends relationship cause I know that she liked him and he fell head over heels for me, it's girl code not to take your "best friends" crush, but I mean I'm also glad that I did cause she's a fake ass bitch who has no ass and deserves to fall down a flight of stairs and then let's see who cares cause that's what it feels like okay, when I was "dying" after the breakup only few really cared and I knew that she chose him over me, her "best friend" of 8 years and she chose the guy that she knew for 1 year, ONE YEAR! COMPARED TO EIGHT YEARS!!

 And she wonders why I hate her so much, she was just a fake ass friend who got whatever she wanted even the guy I like now, I mean he is hot and super talented but I don't like him because of that, I like him so much because he cares about how I'm doing and how my body is from an injury, I recently found out that I might carpal tunnel syndrome in my left hand and he knows the it can hut sometimes especially when I play, and whenever I tell him I'm about to go play he texts me "Don't overdo your hand" and that makes me so happy because I have told other people and they don't really show the much empathy towards it, and that actually makes my heart sing, I mean my best friend of birth cared a lo but I kind of stopped telling her things because I don't expect her to care about everything like I do, I care about everybody that hasn't done me wrong and it shows, I'm actually so nosey and up in peoples business like "I don't need to know this, but I really want to care it involves you, and... I LOVE YOU". I'm a major psycho when it comes to the people and their feelings/emotions. But I can come off as needy and annoying, well in my opinion I am and that can make me second guess every thing I say or text, it's literally the most annoying thing I can think of me doing. I can see why my crush asked me if I like him, because I text him a lot, but I am trying to talk more and tell people more things but that can get messy and can get us into unwanted possessions, but he knows that I like him but not the real reason and I didn't know that I was showing signs other than my sister from another mister asking him if he wants to know who the second girl who likes him, which was me and his ex who is also my ex "best friend" but he already knew that she liked or still likes him because she told him, and I mean of course she did, she was very vocal like that and she likes to attack situations full throttle and likes to know that the outcome will come in her favor, but not with me, I will take the bull from it's horn and drag it to the ground if I have too, I will not let that bull get the best of me when she doesn't like my worst. I will make her wish that she chose me over him, and make her wish that she knows what I can do to ruin her, because in the end, I will win, I will end her.