~Mirrored~

Chapter 8

I wake up to my alarm once again but this time, I throw it onto the floor and cover my head with the pillow. What if I mess something up today? That wouldn't be much of a shock considering it seems like even when I do the right thing, I still get pushed around. I finally get up and take a shower. I undress slowly and step into the cool water spraying out of the shower head. I jolt back until the water turns warm. I sigh of relief once the water turns much warmer. I wash myself and think about what might happen today. "Well, I could ask him out; I could try to you know, talk to him like a normal person" I say and laugh to myself.  Yeah, like he'd even say yes if I DID ask him out. If I did, I'd have to wait a while before I do because I'm not going to do it while we're in school. There are too many risks to be taken if I did that. I finish washing myself and step out into the cool air. I quickly wrap the towel around my waist and walk back into my bedroom. I change into an adidas shirt with jeans. I pull over a black hoodie with a little Saturn on the top left. I have always found Saturn fascinating if I'm being honest. I've never really talked to anyone about it. It's more of a personal thing since my family use to always talk about space when I was younger and they were around more. I miss those times a lot. I use to have such a close connection with them but eventually they had more business trips they had to take to make sure there was food on the table for my brother and I. Bruce is a year older than me and my half brother. We share the same father but my dad remarried and had me with my mom. I'd hear stories about how when he was younger, he was always such a happy kid. I was too but things changed quickly with me. There were some unexplained things that'd happen they would tell me, but I don't remember them. As I got older, I slowly became more distant from my family and I don't really know why, but I did. Now my brother is off doing his own thing and barely talks to me anymore. It doesn't matter, there's nothing I can change about that.
I finally get done changing and walk down stairs, grab my bag, and walk to my car. I throw my bag in the back as I usually do and drive to the school. I turn on the radio and continue thinking. I only joined Dan's stupid group because I thought it would turn me into someone. I thought that maybe people would know who I was if I did and it only lead me down a road of bullying. I loved Kate, but I lost connection with her quickly. She seemed to be closer to Dan than she was me and it bothered me. I don't even know if she actually cared about me at all. It wouldn't shock me.