Mr.Right

Chapter 23~ Bed Rest

{Jay's POV💕}
{Jay's outfit for today}
[weeks later]

I've been laying in bed for days on end now. Just hearing that news strained me from any energy or any spirit. I haven't been to work, church, etc. calls and emails and loads of mail coming in from everywhere, but all I've been doing is laying here ignoring them all.

I just couldn't believe this was happening. I just didn't like the idea of Jordan leaving me for someone who could give him kids. I just couldn't stand seeing him with other women, but I guess I should get used to it or even maybe help him find someone better than me.

Or maybe I'm thinking to far into this, I just want the best from him. I know he's hurting because he already lost a child and now you can't have anymore. I just need to get out of the picture that's it.

I'll think more on it later. As I finished my thoughts Jordan came upstairs. "Baby your dad called he wants to talk to you." He said trying to hand me the the phone. I blew out a rough breath.

"I'll talk to him tomorrow" I said in a groggy voice. He just huffed and said some more words to my dad before he hanged up.

"Baby um this might not be the right time but we have loads of bills to pay." He said softly, "I mean I've payed half but the ones from your house are starting to to pile up." He said, "I'll figure something out later." I said as I pulled the cover up on me more.

"Baby we don't have time for later" he said. I didn't want to be in this conversation anymore so I left to the kitchen.

I couldn't make it downstairs without crying in pain. I made me something to eat and tried to go back upstairs but pain kept shooing through my lower stomach. I'm screeched out in pain.

Jordan came to my side. He grabbed my arm but I snatched it away from him "I got it" I said with a bit of attitude. "Jay no you don't let me help you" He said reaching for me again. "Don't touch me" I said as I felt my eyes start to sting from the tears threatening to fall.

"Sense I can't do anything else at least let me walk upstairs by myself" I said sarcastically. "And what do you mean by that" he said looking at me. "You know what I mean" I said as I slowly made it onto the first step. I tried the second but the pain got worse and I dropped my stuff in the action of grabbing my stomach.

I slid down the stairs. Jordan grabbed me and placed me softly on the couch. I just started to cry, I felt so sorry for myself that I just couldn't accomplish anything without help now. I just wanted to know what's wrong with me.

"I'm so sorry" I sobbed out. "I'm so so sorry" I continued with my head in my hands. "Baby you don't have to say sorry you've done nothing wrong" he said and he creased my body softly.

I shook my head from side to side disagreeing with what he said. "I can't offer to you what another woman can Jordan..." I said as I looked up at him with watery eyes. "I can't offer you that blessing that miracle that joy or happiness of having a child that someone else can... and I know I've failed you because I know how much you want to have a child and I know how much starting a family means to you I just can't....I can't offer you that and I'm so sorry I can't" I said as a tear fell out of my eye. "So I just think that it's better if we separated" I said with my head down. "Wait what?" He said shocked at my words.

I just shook my head "I think you should be with someone better than me...someone that can offer you the life that you want...I'm so sorry" I cried out.

"So that's it?...your just going to leave me?" He asked me. I didn't say anything I just sat there.

"I can't give you-", "you can't give me what? A child?" He said as he let out a little chuckle "Baby we have the rest of our lives to have children....just because you can't have one now does not change anything...it's not in his will for us to have one now but our blessing will come sooner or later..." he said.

I shook my head "I'm not what you want I can't offer you anything now" I said lowly.

"You can't? You can't?...Jay ever since we've been together you've been offering me so much." He said grabbing my hand. I laughed "I have? Like what?" I said sarcastically.

"Like what? Jay you've brought so many things into my life...you brought joy, happiness, comfort, reassurance, and the most important you brought love...if anything you've showed me what love was...if that's not things you offered me then I don't know what is" I just let the rest of my tears fall.

"Baby we are going to get through this together...wether you like it or not...I'm not leaving you over a situation that we can fix together...I love you jay so we are going to get up and start back to working on this situation. Alright?" He said as he turned my head to look at him. He had such a big and bright smile on his face as he looked at me with hope in his eyes.

"Yes Baby" I cried out I held his face softly at I kissed him on the lips. I don't know what I would do without Jordan.

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"Ughh" I said at I stuffed another pain relief down my throat. We've been up all day making plans, paying bills, talking to our parents and other people, we also made a doctors appointment so we can know when to have my surgery.

"Baby I'm beat" I said as I fell down the on the couch. "Me to boo" he smiling at me.

I laughed as I got off of the couch. "Well I'm finna go take a shower and get ready for bed.

I said as I started walking upstairs. "Alright imma be up there in a minute" he said.

{Jay's outfit for bed}
I got out the shower and put on my clothes for bed.

I walked in to our room and found Jordan watchin love and basketball.

I said my prayers and got into bed. Minutes later I felt Jordan place his body softly on top of mine as he placed gentle kisses all over my face. "I love you, I love you, I love you" He said between every kiss.

I just kept laughing, me being the observant girlfriend I am saw that he was recording us. "Baby stoppp I look bad" I whined. He stopped kissing my face so he could look into my eyes. "I love you" He said as he kissed my lips passionately.

"I love you too, now stop recording" I said as I swiped down at his phone. It turned off as he continued to kiss me.

He got off of me and laid between my legs and he peppered my stomach with kisses. "Our time will come" he said as he went to sleep on me.

I let a tear of joy fall as I fell asleep shortly after.