the broken girl// steve rogers

chapter eighteen

h a y l e y

There were so many thoughts going through my head. I looked up at the ceiling as I thought back to what just happened. I never thought in a million years that would of happened. I mean, we're friends and nothing more, right?

earlier

3 guys. I've slept with 3 guys this week! Just this fucking week! I can't even remember 2 of their names, but I will always know the third one. Stephen Strange, a.k.a, Dr. Strange. He was the third guy. He was also the best one.

I walked into my apartment, slamming the door shut. My head was pounding and I needed some sleep, but I didn't feel tired. I felt emotionally drained.

Bucky's been gone for a month now, but he was still in my thoughts. I thought about him all the damn time. One second I'd be thinking about something, then he'd pop into my head. I've always wondered how he was and what he was up to. I miss him.

"Hayley?" A voice called from outside my door.

My feet took me over there and I opened it up to see Loki standing there. He had a small smile on his face. He looked handsome. Well, he always looked handsome.

I gave a tight smile, "Oh, hi, Loki,"

"I just wanted to come by and see how you were doing," he said.

"Oh, thank you. I'm okay," I spoke and gestured him in.

"I saw you around town. I noticed you were with Mr. Strange," he commented, looking down at the floor for a moment.

"Yeah. He's a close friend. We were just catching up, ya know?"

He frowned at me, "Why do you sleep with so many men, Lady Hayley?"

My eyes went wide. How the hell did he know I was sleeping around? Well, he is the God of Mischief, so that makes sense.

"How do you know that?" I asked.

"I'm not dumb. Ever since Bucky left, you've been different. Almost ghost like," he answered me.

"Why do you care?" I snapped, throwing my hands up in the air.

"I fancy you, Hayley. I think your the most beautiful woman I've ever seen. The way your eyes sparkle in the sun, the way your nose scrunches up when you laugh, and the way your lips puff up when your pouting. I love all of that. You're insanely smart, creative, caring, and just absolutely amazing," he said.

I stared at him, "You don't mean that. You're just saying shit to try and make me happy. Well guess what, you can't!"

"How do you know that?"

"I loved Bucky so much! I loved him to the point where I never wanted to leave his side He was amazing in every way possible,"

"But, he left you,"

Those words repeated themselves in my head over and over again. He did leave me. He left me by myself and he took my heart with him when he left. He took all of me when he left.

"Loki," I whispered.

He walked over to me and cupped my face in his cold hands, "I would never leave you, my love. You would never have to worry about me leaving your side. I love you far to much to put you through that,"

"You really mean it?" I asked, leaning in slightly.

"Of course! I mean every word of it," he answered and leaned in as well.

"Just love me, Loki,"

He smirked, "With pleasure,"

present time.

My head was on his naked chest and my hands were lying on his stomach. For once, I wasn't thinking about Bucky. He didn't cross my mind once which shocked the hell out of me.

ding! ding!

I looked over at my phone to see a text from Scarlett. Oh, boy.

scarlett 💛- hey. i was wondering if you wanted to come to london with me.

hayley 💚- what's in london?

scarlett 💛- steve.

Wait, what?

hayley 💚- steve is in london?

scarlett 💛- yes. i wanted to go see him. i miss him, hayles. i haven't been sleeping lately or eating very well. he's my person. i need him.

hayley 💚- is bucky with him?

scarlett 💛- yes.

Bucky Barnes. The man of my dreams. My knight in shining armor. My life, my happiness, and my love. He was the best person in this whole wide world. He loved the hell out of my and I'll never forget that.

But, he left me. He left me in the cold with only a note. That was the only thing he left behind. He didn't even have the decency to leave me a shirt to sleep with. He just left.

hayley 💚- i'm not going. he left me. i need to move on with my life. travel safe, scarlett. i love you dude 😽

scarlett 💛- i will. i love you too

"Who was that?"

I looked up at Loki and smiled, "It was Scarlett. She's going to London,"

"Why's that?" he asked.

"That's where Steve is," I answered, resting my hand on his cheek.

"Oh," is all he said.

"Don't worry, Loki. I'm not going with her. I have you here with me and I don't wanna leave," I said.

He grinned, "You have no idea how happy that makes me, love,"

I pressed a kiss his lips and snuggled closer to him. I was happy here in New York. I was happy with Loki and I didn't wanna ever lose that happiness.

"I love you," I whispered.

"I love you more, my love," he whispered back.

a/n: hello babes. i'm back with another short update. ik that it's kinda shitty, but all well. i want to make Hayley and Loki somewhat main characters in this book. they're best friends with Scarlett and i want them to have more of a major part. don't worry though, Steve and Scarlett with still be the main characters. i hope y'all enjoy! i'll be back soon. thank you for almost 600 reads! i'm so happy! i love y'all so much. stay strong, beautiful , and fierce 💛
-kels