More than bestfriend

Chapter 8

The next morning went by as usual. I woke up early to make us both breakfast and Hin was still sleeping on the bed, wrapped inside our thick blanket like a cocoon. I went to the kitchen and start preparing a simple breakfast for us because it's not me who usually do the cookings, Hin is actually more talented than i am in cooking meals.

Im thinking of just cooking us both pad thai. Hin would usually just eat cake or sandwich for his breakfast and i dont consider that as breakfast. How could this boy even get an energy if he ate something so little in the morning.

My mind was still ranting about Hin's unhealthy eating habits while cutting the ingredients to put in my pad thai until i felt a strong hand sneaked onto my waist, wrapping it loosely around my waist. I stiffened. My fingers that was originally cutting the onions was halted.

Calm down tay, calm down.

I was telling my brain to calm down on the close proximity Hin was doing. I tell you, Hin rarely does this and when i said rarely, it only occurs when he's sick. Eh is he sick?

As i was still regaining composure on our state of closeness, Hin suddenly put his chin on top of my shoulder, making my heart beats even more faster that it was.

What the fuvk New? Are trying to kill me?

Ok Tay calm down

"Hin, can't you see that im cutting?" I said calmly, faking strictness in my tone.

He just hummed at me, not bothering to go away from me. Not that i want him to. I just can't do things right when he's this close.

I turned my head sideways to give him a fake glare but as soon as i did, i regretted my choice earlier. Our face is just a few centimetres apart and i can feel his breathing close on my cheeks, his eyes were looking down at the stuffs that im cutting with blank looks, he's probably still in a sleepy state. I quickly turn my head back to the onions that i was cutting before i did something stupid....like kiss him.

My mind darted back to last night event. Where i took advantage of his lips while he was still sleeping. He wasn't awake that time right? I wonder anxiously. I blush in embarrassment, thinking that i would probably die if he ever finds out about this.

"What are you cooking?" Hin suddenly ask, snapping me out from my embarrassing thoughts

"Just a simple pad thai jah" i said, giving him a curt reply

He just replied me with a simple 'oh' and continued hugging me while propping his cheeks on my shoulder, snoring quietly, probably trying to sleep again.

"Why don't you just go to bed Hin" i asked him with a slight confusion

This is why i dont understand him sometimes. He loves doing unexpected things like this. Making my imagination runs wild with thoughts that could make me overthink and sleepless at night. It feels like he's giving me a fake hope but i couldn't blame him because i know that there was no hope to even begin with. Sometimes he acts so cuddly, needy and clingy to me, making my heart swells with happiness but sometimes he would call me during the night, saying that he's lonely, making me feel that i am not enough for him to fill his loneliness. I'm so confused with him, with his actions, with his words. Why can't he just be straightforward with me.

But would you be able to handle the truth if he were to be straightforward with you?

I don't think i can. Because i know that he's not gonna return my feelings for sure. Staying in this friendzone is already enough to make me happy. Happy while being hurt.

"I wanna stay here with you" Hin replied to my question

There he goes again with his confusing words