More than bestfriend

Chapter 16

NEWWIE

I woke up early today. A pair of strong arms was wrapped around me, realising that the owner of the hands is Tay warms my heart and i unconsciously smiled at that. Is it weird?

I grabbed my phone from the nightstand to look at the time. My head was still laying on his shoulder. This older men beside me is still sleeping soundly.

Are you still sick? - Cherry

I got a notification from Cherry. The girl im chatting with right now. Tay didnt know about her and I don't think that i should tell him until he ask me about it but somehow this feels wrong. I feel like I'm hiding something from him. Am i?

Cherry and I were friends from Uni. We were both taking the same course. Initially, she was the one who started the conversation with me to talk about our assignment but she started texting me frequently asking how my days went from time to time. Sometimes, she would ask me to have lunch with her at the Uni cafe after class and i would just comply. It's not wrong to try right? We've been talking for two weeks now and it was fun to talk to her at times. Sometimes she would annoy me because she keeps on complaining that i keep on replying her late but i already told her that i was busy and i hope that she could understand yet she keeps on complaining but that's how girls are, right?

I replied her text, saying that i was getting better. She told me that she wants to come to my condo last week to take care of me but i feel like her coming to my house is not appropriate because we've only known each other for two weeks and she was sulking at me for 2 days. Cherry is pretty and all but i get annoyed when she keeps on throwing tantrums like this to me.

But then i realised that im like this to Tay as well. I don't know why but i noticed my self getting very clingy with him nowadays. I also sulk a lot with him. That time when he was in Japan, i got so lonely that i video called him almost at every hour instead of replying to Cherry's text. I realize that i miss him a lot when he's not here and i keep on exaggerating my health condition when talking to him so that he gets worried and calls me everytime. I realize that i keep on checking whether he's online or not when he isn't replying to my text and got mad when he's online but doesn't reply to me. I should be doing my assignment yet i went to twitter to check oh his fan page to see updates from him since he's too busy to update to me. Despite all of my little tantrums that i threw at him, he's still handling my feelings very well. He's very busy yet he still makes time to talk to me eventhough its just me basically sulking at him. I know he gets stressed when I'm sulking or get mad at him but i love the way he gets soft, trying to get my attention when he's coaxing me. I love how his eyes soften when he looks at me. I love how he will try his best to fulfill all of my request.

Is this weird?

At times i would compare Tay to Cherry. Whenever Cherry asked me to do something, i would think, Tay wouldn't ask me to do this or whenever she ask me to bring her food i would recall, Tay would be the one who always bring me food. I keep on comparing her to Tay that i feel like i was getting less gentleman nowadays. I keep on depending everything to Tay that i feel like i am being like a little girl because Tay is taking care of me so very well. I don't know why Tay is so kind to me. I know that he's kind to everyone but i feel like he's being even more kind when it comes to me. It's not that i dont like it, in fact i love it.

Honestly, i don't even know why am i talking to Cherry? Am i trying to find a relationship? It's been so long since my breakup with my ex gf and honestly it feels so much better but at times, i would miss having someone to talk sweet and lovey dovey to but i was already doing that to Tay and Tay is already taking care of me like i am his lover. His lover......My face suddenly gets warm thinking of it.

Why am i blushing?

Sometimes i would get curious at him not finding anyone to date. Doesn't he get lonely? I bet anyone who have him would be lucky since he is a very loving and caring guy. I tried thinking of him being with a girl but i dont know why my feelings got hurt by the sight of it.

Why am i like this?

My thoughts wander back to our kiss during the new year. I don't know why i kissed him and i don't understand why he kissed me but that night it feels like the right thing to do. I don't want to bring it up because i dont understand why we did that but honestly that night it feels magical. I don't know any other adjectives to describe that night other than magical.

I suddenly heard my notification tone from my phone. It was another message from Cherry

Get well soon, see you in class :* - Cherry

Why is she sending me that emoji?

Thank you, see you soon :p - New

I don't know why i flirted back with her. Me texting with her without anyone knowing feels like im cheating on someone else but I don't know who. Maybe Tay? But what are we? This feels wrong but i need to figure my self out. I would feel guilty at times because i feel that im using Cherry to figure my feelings out but i never told her that i like her, we just talk and went out to eat sometimes. Am i leading her on? What would Tay's reaction be if he knows that im talking to someone else. Why do i feel like im gonna get guilty by my actions.

The man that has been sleeping soundly beside me suddenly stretched, trying to wake up. He smiled when he saw me already awake. The sight of him smiling while waking up next to me warms my heart.

I could see this everyday

"How long have you been awake?" He said in his sleepy voice, his eyes were still half closed.

"I just woke up as well" i told him, still laying my head on his shoulder, my arms were wrapped around his waist

He suddenly  hugs me tighter to his chest, wrapping his legs around me while burying his face on my hair. I tucked my face underneath his chin, loving the feel of him cuddling me. I like it when he unconsciously cuddles me when he's half asleep, usually i was the one who would initiate the cuddles.

"Don't you have class today?" He mumbles on my hair, his soft breath hitting my hair softly

"Class canceled" i lied to him. I miss cuddling with him and we rarely got the chance to cuddle now. I guess I'd be faking another MC to give my lecturer for the class I skipped today.

"Good, let's sleep until our practice this evening" he told me and hugs me even tighter

I didn't feel sleepy but i dont know how i fell asleep again. Maybe i was tired or maybe i haven't fully recovered yet.... I don't know...

Maybe it was because i was in his embrace.

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Things gets better, i promise