Our lost love {A.I}

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diary entry 2

October 2,

Sorry I didnt right after the boys came over, to many things were happeing and righting in a diary was not my number one priority at the time.

It was actually a good thing that I called them over, they were understanding, and they gave me sympathy but didnt baby me. That was all I needed, to hang out with my best friends. I mean really, besides my family there all I have.

I feel so lost without you here, I know I keep saying it but I really am. You would be so upset with me if you knew the things that are going through my head, the temptations. Calum keeps bringing me hot choclate really its sweet but I cant live off hot choclate for the rest of my life even though its one of my favorite things. And also it reminds me of all the times me and you went to go get hot choclate at the bakery and we would share a muffin and you would laugh at me cause a crumb fell down my shirt and then I would throw my straw wrapper at you and you would just plant a kiss on my nose and ruffle my hair when you walk over to get napkins at the counter cause we made a mess.

I miss that. I miss it so much. I can steal here you laugh at my corny jokes and I can still see your shining green eyes look up at me when were watching a movie. I remember we used to watch like 5 movies a day cause it was our favorite thing to do because were together no interruptions, well besides when Luke would barge in and eat all our food.

Speaking of food, I guess I should eat at some point even though I probably wont be able to keep it down. Right later.

                                   -Ash