Our lost love {A.I}

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Diary Entry/ Note.

"Let me start by saying, this is the last entry I'm writing. This is the last time I will hold a pen, last time I will be able to smell flowers and TRY and appreciate life. It's so freaking hard to appreciate this world, when your only reason isn't alive anymore. I'm sorry I can't stay, I'm sorry I'm not what you wanted me to be. Listen, boys. I love you guys so much, and I am so sorry I can't be a part of the band anymore. Even though we sucked. Please don't mourn my loss, don't get mad at me either, please. I know you have tried so hard to make me better again, but her passing away broke me. It crushed me; shattered me into one million pieces, and I'm sorry guys but I can't be fixed. I hope you can read my handwriting, because, just like me, it looks like hell. By the time you're getting this, I doubt you will even read the whole thing before you go on a hunt to find me. Don't look too hard, I'm in my bed. I will be, anyway. I need to put some stuff where it belongs and run to the store to get food for the dog. Please make sure he is fed regularly. He loves you guys, just like I do. Maybe have him take my place in the band, but make sure he's not better than me. Sorry, bad time for jokes. Anyway, don't worry about blood or anything gruesome, I wont do that to you guys. I know little Princess Luke is squeamish. *Insert smirking Emoji here.* Sorry, jokes again. I'm just trying to make this not so hard. Anyways, I love you guys so so much. I hope your lives carry on long and I hope you get laid lots and go on world tours, I want my dreams to come true through you three.

                                                                                        -Ash"

And with that, I walk to the store.

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You can not tell me that killing yourself is easy.

It is the hardest thing I've ever tried doing.

But here I sit

On my king sized bed,

When things started to get blurry.

when my mind started racing.

This is it,

I told myself.

but it wasn't my voice. My air was limited.

And in that moment I realized..

I was already gone.

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(Don't panic.....yet.)

Btw I didn't right this my amazing friend did because I have horrible writers block.