Our lost love {A.I}

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Diary entry 4

October 10,

I dont understand why people are so mean to somone who is breaking. My friends are all leaving me. In a time like this, arent your friends supposed to support you? Michael came over and cussed me out telling me that I needed to move and that she wasnt coming back. Well, maybe I do need to move on, but doesnt anyone see that I cant! Its really not that fucking easy.

If she saw me right now, what I looked like,  how I act she would leave me in an instant. She would of never wanted me to do this. I gave up drumming for christ sakes!! The boys dont even come and see me anymore, like I never even existed and that really hurts because there my only support.

Maybe I need to go out, find someone else. I mean, there right shes not coming back and I need to realize that before I do something to myself that i'll regret.

no one understands how my mind is working right now. Its like I can stillher laugh when I catch her singing, like I can steal feel her arms wrap around my waist when she gets scared. I can still imagine her cheeks turning a bright red when I call her gorgeous. Shes just an angel, my angel.

My eyes burn I cant get a minute of sleep cause I keep waking up thinking i'm gonna find her eating her froot loops on the couch. God I miss you. But theres nothing I can do.

I'm starting to like this diary a little more. Since theres no one here that wants to talk to me it feels good to let it all out here. Well i'm going to go and try and sleep even though it wont happen. Maybe i'll right later when its two in the morning and theres nothing else to do.

-Ash

(Sorry these are so short /: )