Our lost love {A.I}

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Diary entry 3

October 4,

Trust me I know how it feels. I know exactly how it feels to cry in the shower so no one can here you and waiting for it to be dark and quiet so you can break down in the wee hours of the morning, for everything to hurt so bad you just want it to end. I know exactly how it feels.

Shit, i'm becoming one of those people who right poems in a diary.

I didnt right yesterday, yesterday was a hard day for me. But a good thing is that I actually drove myself to the market on the corner and bought some food even though I looked like hell. My life is hell so...

I feel really really bad. I just want it to end. Everything. I dont know how much longer I can keep feeling like this. How am I supposed to know its gonna get better?

I wrote a song. It sorta sucks but every night I add to it and sing it to myself, I guess I put so much emotion into it that its like theres a part of you in the song. Why am I even flippin doin this! I sound like a psycho talking to myself in a diary god!

Okay sorry, I know this "helping" me in some way so yeah.

You know what diary. I'm gonna go to a party loosen up a bit I mean I gotta let go at some point!

Nevermind, I cant. Why did I say that. I could never let go of Bailey. I dont know what to do and its killing me. Nothing is making me happg without you. Its like I lost a part of myself the day you died and I cant seem to find it. I really need to talk to some but i'm not gonna go to that shit of a councler again. Maybe I'll call one of the boys. They make me happy. Yeah i'll do that.

Oh yeah I love you Bailey to the moon and back (:

                                -ash

(Sorry these are so short I dont know what to right sometimes. I'm thinkin of deleting it but eh we will see. xoxo)