inevitable

two

i left.

the hugs

the kisses

the warmth in your eyes.

you.

i left you behind.

'i should go.'

selfishly,

selfish.

just like that.

i went,

and never came back.

—

i am selfish.

i'm sure you knew.

you always knew.

could see right into my very

soul,

even when i could not see it myself.

but foolish you were,

you gave me a chance

right till the end.

(i left.)

and i can only ask,

watching, waiting,

as it all crumbled away,

who

in the first place,

were you trying to fool?

me,

or yourself?

—

a relationship doomed

from the

start.

—

i never loved you.

or at least

i thought i never would.

but then again

humans are selfish.

through

and

through.

(except for you.)

so somewhere along the line

i fell.

and i fell