Mis Istorias

Happiness and Success

Life is too complicated and we must need to have the knowledge upon getting the wit and guts in order for us to understand how it works and it's complexity, we must have the strength so that we can manage facing those perils that are being given onto us. Life is wonderful yet it is also cruel. Life is not about fairness, it is all about balance. Life itself can be a paradise yet it can also be a hell-like-place where many wants to just take it and end everything, as they say, ending their suffering. But upon exploring the wonders of our lives, we've encountered "happiness". One word consisting nine letters and three syllables. What is it? How can we attain it? Where can we get it? Was it from those things that we wanted to have? From those people we wanted to be or we are with? Or what? We kept on finding happiness in our lives. We kept on chasing for it to the point that we were almost drowned by the ocean of loneliness and agony. One says it can be taken from those things that you have, some says it is from the things that you do yet other says you can find it from those people that you love. People are too focused on it, they kept on taming happiness for they thought it can be tamed. They kept on finding it to someone or something for they thought it can be found. Things went upside down, we stumbled and then fall, we've changed our smiles to frown and our walks to crawl. We're too focused on finding it and as we kept on searching for it we've stumbled with success. Another question stirred our lives. What is success? What is it? How can we attain it? Where can we get it? Was it from those things that we wanted to have? From those people we wanted to be or we are with? Or what? Was it something that we can even get? Or just like happiness, do we need to seek for it?
   Come to think of everything, come to realize every piece of it. How should we deal with this kind of thing? Would it be hard if we'd seek for these two? Would it make it less of a person if we don't have any of these two?  Or could it be possible if we will just only have happiness beside us? Or just the success alone. Would it be necessary to have these two? Everything seems to be so blurry and  it will surely make us feel perturbed.  Perceiving everything, weighing all of the possible probabilities ,  estimating every consequences that might happen. What are those things that we must consider to sacrifice and give up in order to attain happiness and success in life? Would it help us see the better side of this wondrous life we are currently living? If that so, how are we going to face everything? These uncertainties kept on running and running like a raging bull inside our heads. There is this huge question mark above our heads.

I, on the other hand, have been through many ups and downs in my life as a person. I have battled with my own demons, I have dueled against the minotaurs inside this labyrinthic world and I have swam the ocean of loneliness. Along my journey, I have encountered different classes of people; some are optimistic and some are pessimistic, some are crazy and some are not, some are depressed, some are anxious, some are both and some are battling with the sword of sickness. Whilst me, I am sometimes optimistic and sometimes the latter, sometimes I am crazy, sometimes I am not, most of the time I am anxious yet sometimes I am both anxious and depressed. Real struggle, I must reckon. Upon meeting those people, they have taught me about something in my life. They taught me unconsciously what HAPPINESS really is. As the time I thought I have had enough reasons to take my breathe away, realizations hit me like a bullet ricocheting on to me. I came to ask myself, "Am I happy?". For once, my whole sanity went roller coaster. I can't find any answer. And then suddenly, I saw some glimpse of the scenes flashing in front of me. That made me say, " Yes. I am happy". Yet other side of me queried, "Why?" And I thought the best answer of that question. It is not because of the things that I have neither the people I am with and I want to be with. It is merely because of I, myself alone. Along my road, I have learnt that happiness can never be found in a thing nor to someone. Happiness can be found when you want it to be part of you and when you have taught yourself how to appreciate your existence in this world. It is your choice. Happiness is a choice. And loving thyself is the true happiness. But everything is not clear yet, it does not end with some realization about happiness alone. On my way, I bumped with "success". And for the nth time, my whole world was shaken by it. Upon bumping with success, I can say that I have been succeeded with some of my goals. Some of my victories made me feel happy yet some made me feel nothing at all. I succeeded yet I have had not felt anything. That's when I came to realize that success is futile without happiness.  Yes, it can't be separated because what it success if you don't even feel happy? It is like a bread full of air inside, it might appear and seemed to be big yet it has nothing inside of it. We might be wondering why there are these instances that we thought we lose the battle yet we felt happy. That's the real success. Because success isn't all about winning, it is about feeling the happiness even if you have been defeated or you won.

  In our lives, we see things differently. Sometimes we see the color red as red but the others might see it as black. Sometimes we see number six as six but others will be saying it's nine. But all of those doesn't mean one of us were wrong. It means that each of us holds a different bags of beliefs and perspectives. Happiness and success on the other hand, are both things that can't be attained so easily, we must know how to let things go, move forward and accept that everything can never be constant except flux. We might see those two as some sort of goal but we need to know that success is futile without happiness yet happiness can be gained without success but it can still be called as success. For victory is not about the label, it is about the feeling of being joyous despite of everything. Meanwhile, we must also know that happiness is way too different from being contented. For contentment does not allow you to feel happy yet it won't make you feel lonely neither. When the lights have been turned off, will yourself to turn it back on. Never be too tired upon turning the lights on when it has been turned off. Always remember that you can always find light in the midst of darkness, just remember to turn your lights on. Never let your fear spoil your happiness and ruin your supposed to be success. Always put your heads up high even if life keeps on pulling and pulling you down. Never be too pessimistic and don't be too optimistic. Always weigh everything. The situation, the risks and the consequences that you can get upon doing your decisions but never feel frightened on dealing with the pang of rejection. Be happy that you have been rejected instead, use it as a charge of experience in order for you to be better. I was sailing in the midst of loneliness and succeeded upon finding my light for I have learnt how turn it on. I have battled for my happiness and luckily I won, this time.  I have played along just to have success and so I successfully did. I have faced so much perils, rejections made me hamper but failed on making me quit. I have tasted the bitterness of pain and was almost hindered by fears and doubts. I learnt every piece of my knowledge and wisdom from those games I have been through and I am proud to myself that I have managed to held me head up high. Yes, I have been through jumping  on the cliff, lacerating my wrists and hanging myself. I would never deny that fact of me but--- despite all of those, I found my happiness. And that made me realize that having no happiness in your life makes you less of a person. You will never come to experience the real success. But I, I am happy for once I have felt lonely, and I succeeded for once I have been rejected.