Forever is Perfect

Chapter 10

** Nicki POV**

"Babe can I tell you something?" I asked, figuring he had to know at some point.

"YOU'RE ALREADY HAVING SIGNS OF PREGNANCY!?" He asked excitedly.

"No," I laughed.

"Oh well... What is it?"

"No" I said laughing.

"Oh, well what is it?" Drake asked me, losing his excitement.

"Only Thembi knows," I informed him, so he won't tell anyone else.

"Ok, I won't tell babe." He said.

"I haven't been out the house in 3 years because... Uhmm," I started but cut myself off with crying. I couldn't help it, the tears were burning to drop.

"Shhh, it's okay Nic. Remember you can tell me anything, I'll try my best to make you feel better, I promise." Drake told me. His voice was soothing and it was filled with so much sympathy.

"I've been a mom before.." I stated.

"Before? What happened?" He questioned.

"T-they d-died," I choked out. I surprisingly got that out at all.

Drake immediately hugged me. He's so warm and comforting. I felt his tears hit my shirt.

"How? Nicki, I'm so sorry babe." He tightened his grip around me. I pulled away slightly and kissed his lips. "Nicki?" He called.

"Yeah babe?"

"Did they... Die because you were stressed out or did someone do that to you?" I noticed he started to get a little upset.

"My s-son was three and-and my daughter was 1." My voice cracked as I spoke.

Drake wiped his tears and took a deep breath, "What happened to the kids?"

I turned away, I don't know what made me think I could do this because I can't its too much to handle. "I don't want to talk about it anymore."

"Well you started the conversation Onika. I'm gonna ask you again, what happened to them?"

"Maybe another time babe." I wiped my tears that I had been trying to keep in.

"I'm starting to think that you can't trust me enough to tell me these situations. Nicki, this is the second time you started something like this. I ask you because I love you and I care about you." He demanded. I started feeling really bad, I didn't want him mad at me.

"I trust you, but its a touchy subject for me." I hugged him, "it takes time to tell it without crying like crazy."

"Come on babe you can tell me anything." He begged.

"I killed them." I looked away from him, ashamed.