The girl who loves deeply
I remember the first time I saw you, you looked like this bad ass heart breaker who didn't think twice about other people. You gave off a look that said "Don't fuck with me.", it wasn't until later that I realized I was wrong.
A fight with your girlfriend, sitting on the theatre bathroom floor, looking sad and tying up your black boots. I realized how much you loved her, and how much love you put in to other people. You didn't have to deal with the annoying Freshman who followed you around at rehearsals, but you did anyways. Inviting me to your party after letting me cry into your gown on graduation day, laughing with me about lesbian sex, "adopting me" when I giggled at you for kissing your girlfriend. All meant more to me than I think I even know.
You have a beautiful deep soul, when you love someone you go all in, you don't know how much I care for you. I'm always worried that one day you'll do something that will make us lose you. Something toxic to yourself that will make you want to isolate yourself from the rest of us. I wish I knew more into your mind, maybe one day we'll get to have a big long talk about each other's lives.
I can tell you're going through something, I always try not to pry, for fear of crossing a line with you, but know I'm always here for you. The way I know you are for me. Thank you for giving me someone to look up to, and for protecting me from bad decisions the way you do. I know I need it, even if it's not something I wish to admit often.
Love you,
your 11 year old daughter.
