The girl who showed me heartbreak
I don't think you'll ever understand how much I loved you, and that's because I always go all in with my love. You'll always be my first love, the first person I let myself feel completely and totally comfortable with. The first person I exposed myself to. In a way I think that ruined me, because I can't help but think of you when I'm going through the same thing again.
I know you weren't yourself those last few months, that's okay. You have a sweet soul inside of you, one that has to be uncovered but once it's found, it's beautiful. You have to hide yourself in a shell and I admire you for that. I would never be able to live the life that you live. You're mature for your age and also immature in the same way.
You'll do something great with your life, I've always known that. I'm glad that being friends is always something we've been able to do, we each count on each other without expecting much. Know it's okay to talk to me.
I wish you knew it's okay to be a little selfish at times, and that it's okay to work on loving yourself while still loving someone. Thank you for teaching me how to deal with a heartbreak, and how it's okay to be broken for a little bit before being fixed again.
You'll still be the girl I tell my children about when they ask of my first love.
