The girl who I lost
You slipped through my fingers. Maybe it started when I got close with other people, because we were both so used to only each other for awhile. Or maybe it was because we were both dating new people. Maybe it was because we both changed. You were someone once so full life and energy and slowly the world beat you down into someone who couldn't trust.
I don't know what goes on it that head anymore, but sometimes I'm still scared. Scared you'll do something that will make it all permanent. Something that will mean we'll never get you back. I know we'll never get that friendship back, it's obvious I did something to hurt you. I can never turn back time and I can never undo the things that happened between us, but I can still look back on the memories.
We'll always have each other, we hadn't talked civilly for a month and you still knew I was there to talk to about your most recent pain. And I know if I really needed you, you'd be there.
I hope you know how happy I am for you. For finding a best friend to tell your everything to. For getting the independence of starting a club. For gathering the courage to stand on a stage and act to a theatre full of people. I've never been more happy to see pictures of happiness on a snapchat story.
I hope you know I still am always here, even after graduation, even through college.
I can't wait to see the next bright color that will be put in your hair.
