A Collection of Our Deepest Thoughts and Darkest Moments

lifted

for years i have let the burden of you consume me
control me
cause me to fear falling for another 
and allowing myself to give my everything to 
those who deserve it

but for once in what feels like ten years
i have learned to let go of the hurt
that there are some things you cannot change
but can change you
even if it's for the better

because of you i am not naive
i do not beg for someone's love
i will not subject myself to pain for the sake of helping someone
who cannot be helped

i won't stay for someone who doesn't want me in their lives
i do not give myself up easily
hurting myself because i hurt others is not my way out

i view these scars on my body 
as a reminder of what i shouldn't allow myself to do
or subject myself to

although there are wounds you have left
that may never be healed
and you claim you don't remember a thing
i can no longer hold myself accountable
and cannot let you control me
for i have found clarity
and another who would never
do what you had done

so for the sake of you and the sake of me
and even though i do not forgive what happened
i will let this go.