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3 months. 3 months since i've seen him. 3 months since i've felt his arms wrapped tightly around my body. 3 months since i felt his soft lips on mine.
it's been 3 months since i left to go spend a semester in italy after the death of allison. she was my best friend.
after we finally killed the nogitsune and got stiles back i told him i was leaving. we had been dating for almost a year and i told him i needed to take some time to heal. he was heart broken and begged me to stay. i remember how i left him there, crying, alone, broken.
"please don't go y/n. i just got back from being possessed by a 1000 year old evil spirit. i need you. i need you to help me become sane again." he has tears streaming down his face. "i'm sorry stiles, but i need time to heal." he stepped closer and grabbed my hands in his. "you can have your time to heal here. with me. we can heal together. just please, don't break up with me." "stiles i'm not breaking up with you. i love you. i just-" i sighed. "i need to take a break from all of this." "well we can take a break from all this together! i can ask my dad and we can go t-" "stiles! you can't. i just need time away from this town and the people in it. and that includes you." i took my hands away from his and he just stared at the ground. i saw the tears falling onto his shoes and i took a step closer to him and cupped his cheeks. "hey, it's only a semester. i promise when i get back we can go back to normal ok?" he just nodded. "we aren't breaking up. we are taking a small break." he sighed. "are you sure this is what you want?" i removed my hands from his face and sighed. "yes, i'm sure." he let a few more tears escape his eyes. he gave me a hug and squeezed me tight. "i love you." i relaxed into his arms and wrapped my arms around him too. "i love you too." i gave him a peck on the cheek and left.
i left him there by himself. to deal with his problems by himself. i left him broken and alone. how selfish can i be? even though i hurt him, i was still hoping he would take me back.
we hadn't had any communications in the last 3 months, so he had no idea i was coming back. i was now outside his house.
i hesitated a few times before finally deciding to knock. i heard a quick shuffle behind the door and i could feel my heart rate increasing. i was about to see him. i was about to see the boy that i thought about calling a million times. the boy that i missed so much.
the door finally opened and there he was.
he was wearing gray sweatpants and a navy blue shirt. he looked at me, eyes wide, and i jumped into his arms. i breathed in his familiar scent and squeezed him tight.
he took a step back to release himself from my grip and i felt my heart drop. "what are you doing here?" he said with a harsh tone. he was mad, but he had every right to be.
"i'm- i'm back." "i can see that." i gulped beginning to become nervous. "i-i wanted to see you." "oh so now you want to see me?" i felt my heart break into a million pieces.
"i-i just thought-" "yeah well you thought wrong y/n." i felt tears welling up into my eyes. "i'm sorry i just had to see you." "yeah well you saw me now leave." "stiles-" "no y/n! you can't just come back 3 months later and expect everything to go back to normal!" "but i-i thought that was the plan, i thought that's what you wanted." "yeah well things change. i realized that if you really loved me you would've stayed." "i did really love you stiles. i do really love you! i just needed some time to grieve." "yeah well i was grieving too y/n! you could've stayed and grieved with me! you could've stayed at my place and we could've cuddled all day and night and never left the house. i could've held and kissed you in my arms while you cried, but you decided to leave. you decided that you could be without me for 3 fucking months! i would have never been able to leave you for 3 months because i loved you!"
i started to breakdown when i heard the last part.
"l-loved?" his eyes shifted to the ground. "y-you don't love me anymore?" i felt as if i was going to throw up because of my broken heart.
i ran to my car and started it. i raced out of his driveway while he still stood at the door. he didn't look angry anymore though. he looked guilty.
it had been about 2 hours since i felt the worst pain in my life. i was home alone and wearing sweatpants and one of his old hoodies. my cheeks were stained because i was crying so much and i was watching friends.
i decided i would surprise everyone else tomorrow. i heard a silent knock at the door and went to get it. i figured it was just the mail man or something but to my surprise it was stiles.
"st-" i didn't even have time to finish talking because stiles smashed his lips into mine. i immediately kissed back. we finally pulled away breathless. "i love you. not loved. love." "i love you too."
