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i was laying in bed on a saturday afternoon in sweatpants and one of dylan's hoodies watching netflix.
it was about 3:00 and dylan went out about an hour ago to run some errands. he said he would be back by now but i knew he would probably be a little later.
it was now about 3:25 and i heard our apartment door open, along with the jingle of keys being set on the counter. i smiled knowing that dylan was home but decided to just wait until he came into the bedroom.
about 2 minutes later i hear him making his way towards our bedroom.
he stands outside the slightly opened door for a second and takes a deep breath before opening it all the way.
he comes in and i pause my show and look at him. he looks almost like he's upset? i choose to ignore it and begin to sit up. "hi." i say while wearing a happy smile on my face.
"hey." by the tone in his voice, i knew something was definitely wrong.
"what's wrong?" i ask with a concern look. he makes his way towards the bed and sits on the side closest to me.
"i've known about something for about 2 weeks now and i haven't been able to bring myself to tell you." he pauses and i start to become nervous thinking as to what it could be.
he takes notice and takes my hands in his. "i've been waiting for the right time to tell you but i don't think that there will every be a right time. so i'm just gonna tell you now." "ok." he takes a deep breath and looks me in the eyes.
"i got offered another role." i smile at him and become confused as to why he was so scared to tell me. "dyl that's great! i don't see why you would be so nervous to tell me?" "well i'm gonna be gone for awhile.." "dylan it's ok. we've been separated from each other for a few months before. we can still call and text and i can visit you on some weekends like i normally do." he takes another deep breath.
"y/n it's for a year."
"that's fine. i'll just have to visit you more often." i smile at him but see that he's still not smiling. i knew something else was coming but i wasn't sure what.
"it's being filmed in australia."
i feel my heart drop. it's one thing for him to be filming for a year in another state where it's easy for me to visit him. it's another for him to film for a year in a whole other continent.
i was still in school and would have to take a long time off just to go visit him if he's filming in australia. i wouldn't be able to go visit him for a day or even a weekend without taking at least a week and a half off school.
"i can't take that time off school to visit you.." i say in a low whisper. "i know." he was no longer making eye contact.
"d-do you have to?" i know i sounded really selfish but can you blame me? my boyfriend was leaving for a year and i probably wouldn't be able to see him all but twice in that time period. "i mean it's a really big role and would be really good for me and my career."
my sadness soon became anger. "there's a number of good roles here that you could get." i said a little bit more harsh.
"they said i would be perfect and that it could possible be one of the most anticipated movies of next year."
i couldn't believe he was choosing his career over me. "you know i won't be able to visit you like at all!" i say raising my voice a little. "yes i know that."
i took my hands out of his. "and you and i both know that when you're filming you never have time to call or text me!" "yes i know that too."
"well then if you know all of this why are you still choosing to go!" i was yelling now and i could see he was beginning to become angry as well.
"because i think it would be a good opportunity for me!" "i understand that but what about me?huh? what about us?! you know we almost ended things when i wasn't able to visit you when you were filming in spain! and that was for only 3 months! what are we going to do when you're gone for a whole year and i can't visit you!?" tears were now streaming down my face and he had yet to look up at me.
"i don-" he started but then stopped when he finally looked up at me and saw the tears coming down my face.
he took his hand and placed it on my cheek. "oh no baby please don't cry." i was going to pull away but when he called me 'baby' i began to relax.
i looked up and saw that he was already looking at me in the eyes. "w-what are we going to do?" i sniffled. "i don't know baby.."
i brought my face into his chest and wrapped my arms around him. he wrapped his arms around me and began to rub the back of my head. this action instantly made me calm down.
after a short period of time of him just holding me he finally spoke. "i don't know what we're going to do. but why don't we just cuddle and take a nap. we can talk about this when we wake up?" i pulled away and nodded.
i scooted over and made room for him and he crawled in with me. he held me tight and kissed the top of my head. "i love you y/n." "i love you too." i snuggled more into his chest and soon we both drifted to sleep.
