Life is a Long Road

Chapter 2

    I sit in my closet, pulling the blade across my skin. I wince, but sigh in a bliss. Cameron appears, trying to grab my arm. "Kid, stop." He says, sounding in distress. "No Cameron. I want this." I say coldly, He just sighs. Backing away, and disappearing.

   I continue, sighing happily. My mom walks in my room, I drop my blade, scrambling and putting them away, tears streaming down my face. I put on a sweater as she looks into my closet. "Honey? What's going on?" She asks, looking at my face. "Nothing Mom. Just tired." I say, getting up and going into bed. Getting under the covers, hearing her sigh.

   "Goodnight honey." She says, turning off my light and leaving. I sigh heavily, going into my closet and grabbing my blade. I go to the bathroom, washing it and wrapping my arm. I go back to my room, putting the blade away and hiding them, going back under my covers to drift to sleep right away. Dreaming of both being completely me, while also dreaming of me hanging.

   °Time-Skip; Mon. 6am°

 

  "Wake up hun." I hear my mom say, making me groan. "First day today, Get up." She says, opening my window and leaving my room. I groan outloud and get up. Hopefully I can either make friends, or avoid everyone. I put on a sweater and jeans, Not caring. I put on my hightops and leave.

   I get to school at 7:30, since I left at 6:50. I wait under a tree, sitting peacefully as I watch kids talk and get off the bus. "Hello?" Someone says, making me jump and look behind me. "H-Hello?" I say, stuttering. A girl with long blonde hair appears, smiling shyly and waving at me. "I'm Phoenix, but my friends call me Bird." She says friendly. "I'm Blake. And I have no nickname." I say, laughing shyly. She laughs with me.

   "Wanna be friends?" She asks me, smiling. I nod, "Sure, I'm new." I say happily. The bell rings, and we both go inside, parting ways to go to our lockers. I practice my lock, then just go to class. When I get there I go to the back of the class, sitting in a corner alone. I was trying to avoid people, Not make friends.

   I get a notebook out of my backpack, a extra one, Not a specified class notebook. I open it and start writing my heart out before class. Emotions, thoughts, dreams, imagery, The whole thought process of suicide dwelling in my mind as I fill the page. The bell rings, making me close my notebook and put it away. The teacher takes roll, making me queasy and uncomfortable.

   "Broo-" "Blake. And here." I say, cutting the teacher off. He looks at me, nodding slowly in annoyance, continuing on with roll. "Hey, who are you?" Someone asks, I look next to me. Seeing a brunette boy, smirking away. "Hello. I'm Blake, I'm new here." I say, somewhat casual. He nods, smiling at me.

   "I'm Matthew. Nice to meet you." He says kindly. I nod, "Like wise." I say, looking back at the teacher speaking. "New kid, Blake is it?" The teacher asks, "yes?" I say confused. "Come up here and introduce yourself." He says, making everyone look at me. "Uh... okay," I say, going up to the front of the class.

   "Uh. Hi, I'm Blake Morgan, I like writing, and I'm boring so bye." I say, hurriedly going back to my seat. Having the intense need for my blade. I just sit there, scratching at my arm, Not hearing anything around me as I feel, see, and hear darkness surrounding me. Cameron appears in the midst of my darkness, pulling me into a hug as I cry into his chest, Not understanding why I just want to kill myself, or not live.

   "Shh, Kid. Your gonna be okay. The darkness will pass. I'll guide you away from the classroom so you can breathe." Cameron says gently. He leads me out of the classroom, and to what I believe to be outside and under the tree from earlier. I whimper and hold myself, as he hugs me. I know no one else can see him, But if they could, I think they would think that he is a great person, who cares.

   "Cameron I-I c-can't." I whimper, hating this feeling while hating myself. He just hugs me, rubbing my hair. "I'm sorry Kid. Just don't give in again. Try not too.." He says, sighing. Knowing I would give in. I hug him and cry, after we pull away I scratch at my arms, making them bleed. I sigh, peacefully. Cameron grabs my hand and holds it. "Don't do that Kid." He says worriedly.

   "I just want to fucking end it all!" I yell at him, instantly regretting it as he nods slowly, disappearing. "I'm sorry..." I whisper, holding my knees to my chest, crying into my knees. I feel like shit, yelling at Cameron was a mistake, my whole life is a mistake. I hear the lunch bell ring, jumping since I didn't realize how long I was out here. I see Matthew walking over to me, I sigh.

   He waves, and I wave back slowly. "Hi Matthew." I say, wiping away my tears. "What's wrong?" He asks, looking at my face. I just shake my head, trying to drop it. He doesn't take that as a answer and grabs my hands. "Tell me Blake.." He says, sitting down with me. I sigh, giving up on not telling him. "I want to kill myself. And I just, first period was just too much for me.." I say, Not noticing that I'm crying.

   Matthew hugs me, and I snuggle into his chest, crying and holding onto him. He hums as he pets my hair, making me feel happier a little. "Do you wanna leave this place?" He asks, lifting my chin to look at him. "Sure." I say, staring into his blue eyes. He smiles at me, lifting us both up. "We can go to my house if your okay with it." He says, picking his bag up. I nod, grabbing my bag. We both start for his house, starting to just make small talk together.

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A/N: Edit; 2/9/19; Yea people may see Matthew as ginger or a brunette, I see him as a brunette, Jessi is a ginger. You can fight my opinion, Either way, he's a brunette in this book, Bye guys! 🤗

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