Dreaming Out Loud

In whatever way will I soar free

"The moment I forgave myself
I was saved"

For a long time
I hated myself
I hated myself for who I was
I hated myself for who I was not

For a long time
I loathed myself
I replaced who I was
with who I was not

For the longest time
I was so weak
I cut my own two wings
In exchange for 'normal' labeling

But now I see
It is not me I must kill
It is not them I must make enemy
It is the monsters in me ...
that thought they have won me

But what they don't see
Even as I lost my wings
The pixie dusts won't fail me
The gravity will bend rules for me
The gust, the wind, and the tornadoes
They'll work their magics on me

And I swear,
on every heartbreak I've left unmended,
and every teardrop I've left unwiped,
In whatever way
Will I soar free

—g.s.