Forever Love (Sequal To Shotgun Love)

Chapter 23 It's Hot

I couldn't believe that Jess and Dean had moved away, Jess was my best friend and I didn't even know where they moved to. "Hey baby?" I asked Steve. "Yes my love." "Where did Jess move to?" "Oh they moved temporarily to take care of Jess's grandmother in California they'll be back in a few months." "What happened to her?" "She fell and broke her hip." "Ohh damn." "I'm hoping I get to go home soon." "Yeah me too. I wanna hold you in our bed." "Our bed? You mean mine." "No It's ours baby we both sleep there." "Fine our bed." "I love you Kayla." "I love you too Steve." Then he gave me a soft peck on the lips that I returned, it would have been more but the nurse came in to check my vitals and everything was good. I was feeling kind of sleepy since I hadn't got much sleep last night. "Baby I'm gonna take a nap." "Okay love." He kissed me on the cheek. "I'm gonna go grab some food. You want anything?" "No I'm okay." "Alright." He turned and walked out of the room. I rolled over onto my right side and covered up, I soon fell into a sleep filled of impossible dreams.

~Dream~
I was sitting on the edge of the fountain that Ponyboy almost drowned in because of those stupid Soc's. I looked up to see Dally walking towards me. "Dally!" I screamed. "Icy!" He screamed back to me. When he got closer I ran to him and jumped into his arms. "I've missed you so much Dally." "I missed you too." He put me down slowly leaving me in his embrace. "It's so hot Kayla." "It's the middle of winter how is it hot?" "I don't know Kayla it's just hot." "What do you mean?" "I can't explain it but it's just really hot." "I don't understand. I miss you Dally." "I miss you too. You'll always be the only girl I ever loved." "I'll always love you Dallas Winston." "I know." "I'm pregnant with our Daughter I'm naming her Darla Tilliya Winston." "I wish I was alive she needs her father." "Well Steve is gonna be there for us." "He's the last person I want to be her father, but just make sure he's good to y'all." "I will." "I love you." "I love you too." "I'll see you again soon." "Goodbye Dally." "Goodbye Kayla." I watched as he walked away and before I knew it he had vanished and it left me feeling empty and alone. I couldn't understand why he kept saying he was hot.

I woke up in a cold sweat and in tears, I still felt alone and empty. It hit me hard in my feelings waking up from a dream that seemed so real. "Come in." I said through tears as there was a knock at the door, I watched as the door opened to reveal Soda. "Hey Soda." I smiled. "Hey Kayla. What's wrong?" "I had a dream about Dally, he kept saying it was hot and he couldn't explain why and he told me he loved me. I told him I was pregnant he wishes he could be here and-and he said Steve is the last person he wants to be our daughter's father and that he better be good to us. It just hurts so much that he can't be here. " "I know it does, but Steve loves you and that baby. I promise you I know that for a fact he never shuts up about you and her." "That's sweet." "Yeah it is, trust me Kayla he'll take care of y'all. He's done went and picked up extra shifts at the DX so he can afford more things for you and the baby." "Really?" "Yes, he really wants to be there and give y'all a good life." "I'm so happy she's gonna have a father in her life and an amazing uncle." "Me too, none of us can wait to meet her." He said as Steve walked in. "Hey beautiful you been crying. What's wrong?" "I just had a bad dream about Dally. I'm okay." "Well I bought you some flipsticks in you're favorite flavors, Strawberry, blue rasberry and sour apple and I got you a Pepsi-cola." "Thanks baby." "Anytime love. Can I have a kiss?" "Yes." I said as he walked over to me and planted a sweet kiss on my lips. "I love you." He whispered in my ear. "I love you too." I whispered back. "So before I came in here I spoke with the nurse and she's gonna ask the doctor if you can go home today." Steve spoke. "What'd she say?" Soda asked making me nod in agreement. "She's gonna talk with the doctor." I ate the candy Steve brought me and I shared my drink and candy with Steve and Soda. It took several hours to know if I would go home or not but finally I had an answer. I would be going home. "Could you call your parents to come sign some discharge papers?" The nurse asked. "They're dead. I'll have to call my Uncle Buck." She nodded and left out of the room. I called Buck and told him what was going on and it didn't take him long to get there. When he arrived he gave me a big hug. I notified the nurse he was here and he signed the papers. Then I got up and got dressed into a pair of black skinny jeans a white v neck long sleeve and a leather jacket. I asked him to bring me clothes. I put on my black high tops and we left. It was so great being out of the hospital. "I wanna take a nap when we get home." I said with a smile. "I'm coming with you." Steve said. "Well I'll catch y'all later." Soda said. "Naw you ain't walkin' alone Soc activity is up. I'll drop ye off." Buck said. We all got in the ride was silent but a peaceful silence not an awkward one. When we got home after dropping Soda off I went up stairs and changed into a t-shirt of Dally's and climbed into bed, I was joined by a shirtless Steve who was wearing a pair of flannel pajama pants. "Night babygirl I love you." "It's still day time but this room is so dark. I love you too." I rolled over to lay on his chest and he held me close giving me a few kisses on my lips which I returned. I soon fell asleep and so did he and to my surprise I had a dreamless sleep. Upon waking up I saw a silhouette of Dally standing in my room by the dresser, I wasn't surprised that I was seeing him if I'm being honest, Steve was still sleeping soundly with his arms wrapped around me in a safe embrace. I slowly removed myself from his embrace, walking over to Dally, I reached out slowly wanting to grab his hand and pull him close to me; to hold him close to me and have him holding me close. I still hadn't accepted that he is gone, and I am not sure that I ever will accept that he is gone; although I'm sure that it will get easier in time. I just don't think that I can ever fully accept the fact that my first love,my first kiss, the man that I lost my virginity to is gone, he was my first everything and all that was ripped away from us because of Johnny's death and we both went crazy from that in our own ways, he committed suicide by cop and I could not accept Johnny's death or let alone losing Dally in the same night, only minutes from each other. I felt like it wasn't real and when I fainted and went into a coma I dreamed of the life that Dally and I had and what we would have had, it felt so real to the point that when I woke up thinking that it was real. I still feel like I don't know what real reality is and what's fake. I had gotten lost in my thoughts and I hadn't realized that he was now gone again. It was so hard to get over Dally even just a little because i kept seeing him over and over and over again, I see him in my dreams, I see him in my mind and I can feel him here with me even though he isn't here anymore. I started to head out of my room when I felt something hold me back then I heard Dally's voice in my head. "It's so hot Kayla, it's so hot." His words echoed in my head as I felt like my entire body was on fire as if i was burning for an eternity, even though it was just a feeling it felt so real. I still couldn't understand what his words meant and more importantly why I was able to feel it too. I walked out into the living room after going downstairs, I saw Buck sitting on the couch watching the news. "I'm gonna go to the park." "Okay, be careful, you got your blade." "Yes I do." I said as i got to the door. "I love you Kaylabug." "I love you too Uncle Buck." I said back as I grabbed my keys and went to my now new sixty seven, blue mustang. I drove to the park, walking to the fountain taking a seat. I sat there and thought to myself about all the things and all the good times that Dally and I had but his words about it being so hot still burned in the back of my mind and I couldn't understand why it was and what it could mean. I hoped that I could figure it out or at least somewhat understand what he meant someday.